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Sunday, September 17, 2006

9/17/2006 09:32:00 AM Y

Post title : Pieces of Thoughts
♥ You'll never know the real me.

[x]: Pieces of Thoughts :[x]

This world is everchanging and I thought.. I could simply get up and move on.
However, supposingly I've complicated my life so much since then.

I messaged Junlong today to see if he's able to accompany to NUH to visit Yuting.(afterall he knows her too)
He said he's knocking off around afternoon and so would be able to make it.. And of course.. I'm glad that there's a companion lahs.. haha
Then, later in the message he text:
I call Eugene come also want?
I replied ''anything'' but honestly I wanted to see him. I wanted to ask him face to face how his relationship has been going. I wanted to know quite a bit bout his current life. I Just wanted to know.
Curious? I not sure.. Perhaps bahs

If there's a chance, I wanted to be with him again.
I wanted to feel 'the past'.
I wanted to exchange those warm hugs with him.
I wanted to share my day with him.
I wanted to listen to his voice every night.
I wanted to see the expression when he's jealous.
I wanted to hear him saying that three words to me. I wanted to so much.. that I know this are just wants that shall never be satisfy.
I'm a quixotic girl. Idealistic? Impractical? but I'm so fucked up by my thoughts and feelings. arghh!

What reason could I give to feel such a way? Though 7 months are not too long nor too short, he's my longest one. One that I once couldn't live without. One that brought me to certain truths of love-life. One that changes my mindset. We went through a lot? Not really I guess? But I know I truly loved. Things can't turn back for me right? It's his that faded first. Not me. I really wanted to blame him so much for letting me go so easily. Why didn't he hold me back? Why didn't he ask me to stay?
My heart is so disguised now. I know I've got another HIM. But I would think of the past at times. Recalling those "still like yesterday" memories.
I'm slowly hurting people around me. Goodbye can be an extremely hurting word and Me myself don't like it too.
What makes me so mean to do it to others then? Beats me. I'm a bitch..

I wanted to take my time to see the truths of my uncertainty. I wanna come to the conclusion of all doubts. But please don't pressurize me against time.

To my man, I'm sorry to let you feel hurt or upset over things I've said or done.
Just remember.. I'm the kite..
Don't be too emotional my dear.. you're already 20 and you need not be too sentitive over some words I said. Let me feel you're a right man that I can depend on.
Though I'm only 15, I know what kinda guy I want. I can't put them in words. It's just the feelings felt, so don't ask me.
Let's try out this relationship to see if it works.
Anyway, I simply don't understand why you'd ask me to believe u for "that". What has it gonna do with trust/belief? -.-

Drop that subject.. Just don't hold me too tight.. give me some space..

To you peeps out there who've been tagging my blog or so, I don't mind if you guys think I'm a 'playgirl"
I'm so confucked and totally messed up. Love's may be a burden to me.. Whatever it is.. regarding love, I'm contradicting..
Full stop.







thatGIRL



W A Y N E - NingNing
 Take Me For Whom I Portrayed To Be.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.

I'm the only witness
and the only person who can judge my life.

This is my blog so SCRAM if you hate it.


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I don't wanna be COMPARED no more!

I wanna earn lotsa $$$

I wanna marry HIM and have his KIDS

I wanna live on my own - preferbly with my Boy

I wanna be RESPECTED

I wanna shop like a Rich Lady

I WANT SNOW GLOBES!

I WANT A SET OF SEVEN DWARFS!

I WANT BLACK n WHITE DOMINO SET!


PEACE

MY Baby BOY - GlennHoCjinXieng




I prayed on that silent night for someone to share my life..and there you are..

Life is never gonna be the same ever since you entered into my life..

Obstacles that might come in our way, I believe we'll pull it through together

Vows and promises I made to you.. I swear they'll be true..

Ever since I have fallen so deep in love with you, I know I can't resist to love you more each day.

U are my future.. my love.. my ONLY one..

My Precious GIRLs :

EefennieBOYFRIEND, TracyGIRLFRIEND, MichelleGIRLFRIEND, PearlDEARIE, ReginaLOVER, Yuki, XiaoTingMEIMEI

PISS


game ADDICTS

people who BACK THEIR WORDS

big time SELFISH people

people who go for FACE and FIGURE

people who ALWAYS loves to JUDGE others
( occasional gossips are fine =D )

BRANDS SIAO

theLYRICS

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真诚
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能
少了你的完整
两个对的人奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你
抱紧
☆...

herESCAPE



DARDAR


EefennieBOYFRIEND


XiaoTingMEIMEI


Yoshiko


VirneigeJIEJIE


PearlDEARIE


ReginaLOVER


MIYA


JoanneDASAO


SiokMin


SzeRui


XueQi


Evangeline


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