Sunday, December 31, 2006
12/31/2006 07:22:00 AM Y
Post title : happy 2007!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Happy 2007! :[x]
A new year is arriving soon! Let's rejoice and enjoy our very last day of 2006 while happily receive 2007!
I'm heading to town for my last day of 2006, anyone will be there?
Maybe we shall see each other? ahhas
This entry is no post of my life just to wish everyone once again A,
Joyous + Happy + Smooth
2007 ahead!
12/31/2006 07:22:00 AM Y
Post title : happy 2007
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Happy 2007! :[x]
A new year is arriving soon! Let's rejoice and enjoy our very last day of 2006 while happily receive 2007!
I'm heading to town for my last day of 2006, anyone will be there?
Maybe we shall see each other? ahhas
This entry is no post of my life just to wish everyone once again A,
Joyous + Happy + Smooth
2007 ahead!
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
12/26/2006 08:48:00 AM Y
Post title : That Love
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: That Love :[x]
The way he kiss
The way he hug
The way he says
He love me much
Did anyone realize how much it means to the person you said these three words to?
Or did you just say it without really meaning it?
The vows and promises made
The memories shared between two persons
Yet..
Always the unavoidable ‘Goodbye’
Stabbed the heart and soul like a dagger pierced
Hearts were hurt and broken
Footsteps are now dreadful and heavy
Indeed, time would fade everything..
And this includes feelings..
Iron would turn rusty
Bread would turn mouldy
Coffee would turn cold
Biscuits would turn soft
Leaves would turn yellow
We would turn old
We aged as we grow.
And forever is impossible
How sure are you that you’ll meet in heaven/hell?
How sure are you that you’ll love him/her always?
Just simply ask yourself, “How sure am I?”
Have we forgotten the kind of love we’re waiting for? The one we once longed and desired for?
Have we forgotten the meaning to truly love before saying “I Love You” to that person?
Did we notice that in this century, what one would go for most are?
Looks? Feelings? Figure? Inner-beauty?
The kind of romance I wished for and still wishing..
The guy I think I should wait for and still waiting for..
But to think that time could change everything..
My heart would turn cold after that long wait.
No man on earth will wait forever now.
How many failed relationships will you have before your really marry the one?
“Actions speak louder than words”
But did you realize that the word “Act” comes from “Actions”?
Rarely will we think bout it, won’t we?
If what you want from me is just actions to prove it..
Then, tell me what you want and I shall do it for you
I need no true feeling for you to do it
I need no specific reason for myself to do so
I need no emotions to express it
For all you want are actions
Humans are born actors and actresses
If one intends to hide, that’s almost near a zero percent to expose him
Let alone asking him to speak the truths
But always remember that..
“Half truth is worse than a lie”
I’ll continue to learn from hurts and sadness
Continue to discover and notice how many loving and cruel people are there on Earth
I’ll continue to grow and love
Continue to experience success and failures
Most of all, I’ll continue to find the real meaning to be happy and how love goes about.
I wanna be that girl you’ll never find in this world.. The one and only that you shall regret not knowing! ^.^
Labels: love
Saturday, December 23, 2006
12/23/2006 12:13:00 AM Y
Post title : Lovely or Friendly?
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: My LOVELY FRIENDLY X'mas :[x]
Messages with great wishes for this coming Christmas.
A joyous festival we celebrate.
Crowds everywhere and presents filled the air.
Excitement grows each day.
I sat by my window thinking:
How am I celebrating this year?
I closed my eyes and crystals fall
No longer a LOVELY night
I have my friends
I shared those smiles
I feel the happiness
But yet I yearned much more
I wanna spend with one loved man
To See the lightings
To feel the festival
To hear the merry song of x'mas
This night, I thought of him
I wanted to see him
And I really miss him
But all I could do is to hold back my feel
Baby, you should know how much I wanted to spend it with you rather than with others. I know I've got friends who are willing to accompany me but the thought of being with you, holding hands, side by side ...
What more can I ask for other than a sweet x'mas with a man I love? Anyway, everything's over and I shall enjoy my x'mas with them. They're the ones always there for me.. Loves! ^^
Labels: issue
Friday, December 22, 2006
12/22/2006 01:17:00 AM Y
Post title : The reason
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: The Reason For Me To Live :[x]
I dropped my tears once again. For a man they said not worthy of.
Finally, I boost my courage and said that unwanted goodbye to him.
For you, I realised how much the people around me cared.
They never wanted to see me sad
And I know..they're always there for me
All ready to cheer me up and chase all my blues away.
Truly, they are my reason to live
And, I shall live happily for them too..
Of all the gifts and toys,
I finally found the most precious one.
The one that has been there for a long time yet unnoticed.
It showed me that the world is full of caring people.
A place where I have many helpful friends with listening ears.
A short story to tell:
One day, Girl was using the laptop and chatting online. She was in her sis room at that time. Girl's Dad was sleeping soundly in the bedroom, Mum was doing household chores as usual, Bro was in his room using the com too, and sis was still outside .
Suddenly, Girl saw her bro's MSN nick appearing. She opened the window and saw what her bro typed. He told her that he'll always be there for her. And also, he'll be there when Girl need a listening ear. He saw her tearing the other day and thus messaged this to her.
Girl was touched and she felt a sudden gush of tears beating round the corners of her eyes.
Slowly, when things and those obstacles in life appear, Girl cried in joy, realising that she's not alone. She experienced love of kinship.. friendship.. sistership..
Girl admits she ain't a strong person and she feels sad when alone. She's afraid of getting hurt yet she never realised the hurt she brought to others too. However, she murmured to herself, remindng herself to be aware of the people around her. Understand and feel more for them. Girl wanted to be with her family, friends, and sisters forever. Girl is happy to know Gab, her god daddie, her sisters, her shushu, etc. They brought smiles and colors into her empty and dull world. They meant too much to her.. too much that she can't possibly live without them.
They showed their utmost care and concern for Girl and she appreciated it very much. She wanted them to know that they were the REASON for her to LIVE..
The End
Labels: love, story
Thursday, December 21, 2006
12/21/2006 01:50:00 PM Y
Post title : BUt then..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: But Then :[x]
The things that you do
Can make me feel loved
But then sometimes it feels
Like my heart has been shoved
The way that you joke
Can cause me to smile
But then they get harsh
Causing tears for a while
The way that you kiss
Can send shivers through me
But then you want more
Causing me to feel cheap
The things that you say
Can warm up my heart
But then more often than not
They can tear it apart
Labels: love
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
12/20/2006 11:27:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Simply For You :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Simply For You :[x]
You brought my heartbeat back from it's dreamland
You caught me when I fall
You told me how good you were
Yet for all that you've said, I'm holding doubts now.
I can't bear to say goodbye
I thought I was blessed to have you, and that I can put that faith in you.
However, You broke that trust and just from your eyes, how much you love?
Just tell me how much you love me? Honestly.. deep from your heart...
The intentions of getting another girl when you had me.
The preference to ring up other girls than me, your GIRLFRIEND? (Be it gan mei or what)
The unbearable silence from my phone, everyday waiting for you to text me
The unexpected fact that you actually lied to me
I wanted so much to talk to you face to face. Cos I wanna see you. But I know, I might not be able to take it too.
So much that I wanted to share with you, I wanted to be with you but I know..
I know.. I'm not that right girl in your life. Neither am I the ideal one I suppose.
I'm definitely not the one that could change you. Leave alone getting that real answer from deep down your heart.
Listen to your heart, if we're not meant to be, I'm willing to let go for this once again.
There's never a right time to say goodbye. I wanted to end 'beautifully' on our first monthsary.
But I know we needa go on separate ways. Also, I'm afraid I'll hold back that farewell when I see you or when time pass.
I'm not that strong girl when comes to relationship. I do like you and to make a choice between stay and leave is no easy decision too.
Yet I guess I needa choose my way out. So, I decided to leave your world. Thanks for creating memories for me even if it's only a short period of 3 wks.
You're the third guy I gave my tears to. Do remember me and bear in mind that there's this one girl that once loved you faithfully but was hurt by your lies.
You may not mean to, but things can't be undone.
She wanna tell you:
"I laid my eyes on you thinking you're the one for me. Each day my feeling for you grows. Yet your lies thrown me so hard and fast onto the ground. Still, I clinged on to the relationship, hoping that thing will turn out to be better. But I know, I can't expect much from you for I only occupy a small part in your heart. I wanted to love you faithfully for all of my life. However, I don't think you need me at all. Open your heart to me will you?
Whatever it is, no matter what will come, I'll still be there and lend you a shoulder when you need a companion. This I promise you.."
Ending it now might be of a better choice I think. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy every moments! I'll miss you my dear. Last but not least.. GoodBye.. ='(
Labels: love
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
12/19/2006 11:22:00 PM Y
Post title : gush of messed feel
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: gush of messed feel :[x]
Never say you love me when you don't mean it
Never say you care for me when you don't give a damn
Never say you miss me when you're thinking of another girl
Never say you want me when you wanted a pretty girl with nice bod
Never promise to be there for me always when you can't
Never promise to meet me when you don't want to
Never promise to take my hands when you're going to let go
Never promise to be mine forever when your feelings change easily
Never look into my eyes when you don't mean what you say
Never look into my eyes when all you say is lies
I know you're lying. I know you'd rather be with someone else than me
Yet I shut my eyes, blinding them pretending I don't mind or don't know at all.
Can you see that disappointment in my eyes?
Can you see those tears for you?
Can you feel that sadness in me?
Did you see that forceful smile of mine?
Have you ever notice me?
If you can't see only me in your eyes, I'm not that girl you wanted to be with.
To think that I trusted you,
waited for you the way I've never done before,
yet you prove my love and feelings wastefully given to someone not worthy of.
However, that unknown feeling in me just kept me going with you.
It's expecting for something more real yet afraid of those hurt and pain that might accompany along.
How real are you?
I lost my sight, visions blurred..
Searching for one right man of mine but will I really find one?
If Love is that difficult
Than ban anymore guys from entering and messing my life
Seal all my feelings and emotions
Tired.. I'm really sick and tired of everything.
To act each and every day with a smile. Numbing myself with all my craziness.
I'm fine.. set?
Labels: love
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
12/13/2006 11:04:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: Back to LOVE :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Back to LOVE :[x]
We laid our eyes for that moment they met
We throw in our feelings the moment we feel
Never knowing what may come
We willingly fall in love
The fear that wanders
In me it never disappears
Affecting the trust and security
Confusing the level of love's maturity
The serendipity of our meeting
The joy we had ever after
It's coming back again
The way I'm LOVED
I'm back to being a girl of someone else. Never knowing how long we may last, never considering too much bout the future that lies ahead. I boldly chose to be with him.. just with him.
Til the day he give up, I believe I'll continue to throw in my feelings and love bit by bit and more each day. The affection between would grow but even a flower that blooms would wither, thus I'm not expecting much from this new relationship.
Or should I say I dared not? Or am I just deceiving myself that I don't give a damn at all?
Fear arises the moment the agreement of a specific status was made. Yet bits of happiness I feel in me. It was as if I have expected him to come to my life, taking care of the me that have been all the while with my girls in my world.
I had fun with my venerated girls I admit. I enjoyed and love every single moment spent and shared with them.
However sistership can never be compared to that love I longed from a guy I could entrust myself to.
I've got no 100 percent confidence but I'll take a baby step at a time to get closer to him. Understanding the way he is and be a good girlfriend. Hopefully the best he can ever find.
But even so, will he really realise? I don't know.
If there's a day we have to part, I'll cry.
I know I'll feel that heartache once again.
Doubt to have that strength to heal myself by then but I'll let go.
Of course, never ever the slightest wish for that day to come.
He's the third I truly feel for and I pray for him to be the last.
I never throw in anymore true feelings after the second one. Now that I've met him and be with him.. I know everything is for real.
The misses, the hugs and kisses, the happiness..
My dearest man, I'll love but never forever for there's one day we'll part.. the day we enter our death..
Labels: love
Monday, December 04, 2006
12/04/2006 08:41:00 PM Y
Post title : dumbest me
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: How Dumb Can One Be? :[x]
I was taking a bus back to bishan MRT station yesterday(10.12.06). And guess what?!
I fall asleep.. yaya.. that's nth cos most ppl who're tired would have just doze off in the bus too.
But listen the worse part has yet to come...
When I woke up.. where am I? Anyone tell me?
The bus is not moving.. lights off.. in a public transport?!
BUS?!
Where the fish is the driver?!!!
I was really freak out.. to be honest I was damn scared.. cos no drivers out there notice me.
Fortunately another bus driver came driving the bus in and I managed to catch his attention. He opened the door and of course he was puzzled to why was I still in the bus at that time. It was 11 plus then and luckily I still got train back home.
I was really afraid in the bus.. being locked alone ='(
While I was waiting for my train in the station, laogong called me. I told him bout the incident and my tears just rolled down lahs...
I keep telling myself that it's ok.. nothing much what.. just being in the bus.. overslept..?
But you can't ever imagine a gril on her own in the bus being locked could you?
God damn! But anyway everything is over..
I swear i won't want such a thing to happen again.. NEVER!
