Friday, June 29, 2007
6/29/2007 06:32:00 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
MY WOUND STILL HURTS!!!!! T.T
Ugly Duckling ----> Black Ugly Crow!!
sobxxxxxx~!!!
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Thursday, June 28, 2007
6/28/2007 08:44:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Youth Day's Advanced Present :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Youth Day's Advanced Present :[x]
I had an advance prezzie from
NGJIEYING!!
sobx.. It hurts!
Went to gym with Thomas and Glenda to find Don and Wei Hao who were already there.
Did some workouts.. perspired.. kinda satisfied.. and here comes the part..
It was quite some time already and JieYing finally finished the oral (she's pathetically the last candidate). Together with Alvin, YouXiang, JunXiong, Elijah, ZhaoHui, (I'm sorry if I left out anyone! =X) they came to the gym to find us!
FINALLY everyone was there. After some workouts, we were kinda gathering at one spot and chatting, lifting weights.. etc. Elijah really 'ren bu ke mao xiang' sial!! See his muscles!! Gosh! I mean tri- and biceps. =)
I didn't know he is so fit?! Lols.
Anyway, I was behind JieYing(she didn't realise) and guess what??
Jieying: 我也有力的咯！*waving hand up trying to show off*
*PAH~!*
My specs!!!
It scratched up and it HURTS!!!!
Ran to the ladies and.. oh my.. got wound la!! sob sob!! T.T
All the rest were telling me that it won't realy leave a scar. And when I came out of the ladies, they were like asking JY why hit me siol! whahahhas..
She felt guilty of course, but can't blame her bahs.. She didn't expect me to be behind! And..well.. our class people are chu le ming de SLOW POK! Her reactions won't be that fast either xP
Now my eyelid there is red. Thomas and JunXiong said it looks like make-up. BUT!!! WTH la.. where got ppl purposely go put red red eye shadow or what small patch at the eyelid la.. It's RED.. RED!!!! >.<
Arghh...! I hope it'll recover soon!
T.T Disfigured me.. SOBX!
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
6/27/2007 06:10:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: After Lesson on Wed :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: After Lesson on Wed :[x]
It wasn't a dreadful day yesterday cos there was no extra lesson!! Mdm Junaina got meeting so it was cancelled!!=D
Anyway, slacked in class for about 2 hours before reporting to CO at 4 pm. Everything was prepared and we waited a short while, arranging ourselves from the TALL to the TALLEST for CCA photo-taking.
Pause there first, gotta comment bout class photo taken during morning hours. Our class guys(almost ALL) went to spike their hair!! Mdm Junaina was like so 0.0'' when she saw spiking hair(she said it was explosion or sth like that). hahas. Hmmm.. BUT.. too BAD we got a ''GO BY BOOK'' form teacher.(shall nt reveal her name for her own reputation cos she is retiring probably end of this yr)
She told those whose hair were not to the school's expectations to get 'them' down.. Meaning to comb or wet down the hair la. hahas
So.. well, who cares? LOL
Back to CO photo-taking session. While waiting, the crazy Sec4 CO members (refering to most of us from sec1/2 same class de. Eg: SinTing,Cheryl,XiaoHan,Yuping,ME and diff class de YongMei)
We were 'feng-ing'(Mad-ing) with songs etc. Cheryl, our 'main lead singer' sang the song "SMACK THAT" and we were learning their actions. I don't know how to explain but if ever you got the chance to see it.. lols.. It's FUN!!
Our informal photo was taken with the front row Sec4 members posing with our ties on our head liike ren zhe or those gu dai men with the tie coming down at the side from our forehead ^.^
Then for the committee informal photo, which we decided earlier, posed with girls pulling down one side of the blazer and sorta pointing one finger at cheek trying to act 'cute' or whatever you think it was. hahas.. Guys pulled down their ties and think both hands kind of put a distance infront their chest.
It was really a MEMORABLE and FUN and UNIQUE CO phototaking! kekes. I LOVE CO!!
[Especially our own batch 2004-2007] =p
Oh.. not to forget what happen during the 2hours wait in class !!
Boyfriend came to our class, actually to wait for me to finish taking the CO photo which we at first thought will be taken at 4 but later found out it was 4 report, 5.30 take photo. We intended to go out after that but due to the 'truth' being revealed, Boyfriend only accompanied me til I report to CO.
She took lotsa candid photos.. Let me show you some photos!! =)
Why is my hair looking kinda wet? : Cos I'm just back from toilet after wetting my hair as I tied it earlier on! =)
Boyfriend said I looked as if I was spraying some pesticide.. =.=''
But the truth is.........
It's LUCIDO-L moisturing lotion! xD
It smells NNIIICCCEEE~~~
a) Boyfriend blogged: "thomas: 做什么啦??"
b)boyfriend blogged: "我帮你style hair嘛.."It's creative..BUT in actual.. the pic in part A, I'm simply trying to get one side of the ear piece?? x) lolsBOYFRIEND not good in interpretin eh? whahahhahahs As for part B, it's obvious I styled his hair cos BoYFRIEnd was there mahs.. hahas.. If she misinterpret the photo B.. gosh.. I don't know how is she going to do SBQ questions on photos ler =X
Ka jiao - ing Xiao Bai aka Thomas while he was 'guaiguai' doing chemistry worksheet~=D We're never 'CONSIDERATE'! xp
The New SMALL-EYED Gatsby Model :Xiao Bai!! =D buahahasIt's the PINKy Gatsby!
Next up..
Our model: Eugene Yang!!The slow spastic retarded YANG!! =D
Xinyi (in black tee): It's here then there..?Eugene Yang: Nono.. I think is there then here.. right??o.0?Xinyi: no lah.. should be here then there mah..Eugene Yang: ??? Shi meh? I still think is there then here la.. LOL. Enough of that crap. They were actually discussing on directions of objects.It's ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS de VELOCITY chapter!! =DGosh~~ I had enough MATH today!!! grrrr
ME(with brown rubber band on wrist area): Hey.. you you!!Pose back pose back!! No this position la..Eugene Yang still haven't give up ar?! Stop la stop lah.. Don't 'here then there' or 'there then here' le~! buahahahs Follow up..
Alvin(in black long pants)..Was he trying to 'fight' with the air-con??Whose smells better?! *puke* =P
Alvin: You see ar.. you have to do this first.. then you do that..Get me or not??Shafiq: err.. *thinking hard to comprehand* xP I simply love this day!! It's a long yet FUN n HILARIOUS Tuesday!! xD Tata~!Labels: personal
Monday, June 25, 2007
6/25/2007 04:22:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: The Last Saturday :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: The Last Saturday :[x]
What did I do or go on the LAST saturday of my bascially only 2 weeks holiday ne? 6.6
Well, together with Boyfriend Eefennie, we went to Jurong East Library. Supposedly to do holiday assignments together but ended up I did nothing much. BF rather hardworking neh! hmm.. She must be 有问题。=p LOL
By the way, there were two to three bands from NUS singing at the library teens level.(Where we are of course)
It's not very clear but.. hahas.. jiang jiu yi dian la.. LOL.Hmmm.. all I can say is.. FIND A BETTER PLACE TO SING PLEASE!!The surround sound wasn't that good. The singing part is abit too.. hmmm.. maybe cos of the LIBRARY that force them to do it without some echoe or something? I think singing part was kinda 'dislocated' from the band. hahas.. I ain't a pro at this so .. hmm.. don't comment too much bahs =D
Then, while BF was using the com, I looked out of the library's window plane and guess what!??!
Can you actually see a MAN STANDIN there?! Oh dear.. He wasn't about to commit suicide of course.. =.=''But well, why is he standing there la! Worker also don't needa stand there 摆 pose de lor!! whahahas
That girl in the photo blocking very extra!! Can she choose a better time to stand up and walk the next time?! grrrr.
Then, while doing the assignments, or maybe during a short rest, BF took a PIC of ME doing STUPID FACE!! >.<"
Well, it is undoubtedly UGLY! demo demo.. I still gotta post it!! Cos this is being titled -
OSTRICH FACE!!
Oh my god~~~ How can she say so when I'm trying to be a SUPER GOOD model who ‘不惜色相’help her pose neh!! =Pbuahahas..
Enough of that. I'm tired.. BYE~~
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6/25/2007 03:26:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: First Day Of Semester 2 Term 3 :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: First Day Of Semester 2 Term 3 :[x]
It wasn't a bad school day afterall. ^.^
First day is still a relaxing one !!
But this won't be LONG cos we're having extra lessons starting TOMORROW!
What a SHORT time for us to re-adjust ourselves. =(
Basically, we got our new time table and a change of seats.
This is the seating plan:
It doesn't look any weird to you peeps but it REALLY make a difference!!
Saw where I am sitting now? It's so far at the corner lahs!! arghh.. It initially is four rows of about 8 or ten people. But now!!
LOOK AT THE NEW SEATING PLAN!!
All girls are of course, no doubt being arranged to sit with a boy. (That is so as there's basically only 12 girls as compared to 23 boys I THINK. Not sure too =p)I used to sit around the middle part but now .. haiyo.. don't comment on that ler.
Anyway, it's really COLD at my seat!! Or should I rephrase it to..
Our classroom's air-cons are finally working!! whahahahs..
Not really a good thing to me though. I'm freezing!! >.<Gotta bring a jacket from now on. oots~ Extra burden xP
Okies.. think I gotta post this entry before my com ki siao again.. whakakakas.. xDSee ya peeps!Labels: personal
6/25/2007 03:03:00 PM Y
Post title : Cont'd - Jealousy Quiz
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Cont'd - Jealousy Quiz :[x]
Take A Few Minute For This.. Maybe it could be a wake up call for many couples! =)
Question 1:Is it good to make your partner jealous?
The answer was No
Sometimes people I talk to think it´s good to make their partners jealous. "It proves he cares," she´ll say. "I feel wanted when she´s jealous," he says. Wouldn´t you rather that you felt wanted and cared for *without* your partner feeling afraid of losing you? Jealousy is a painful emotion. To cause your partner pain, and promote this fear of the relationship being harmed, cannot do well for the relationship as a whole. You want to build your relationship up so you both feel wanted, happy, and secure naturally. You don´t want this feeling to only come around when one partner is actively fearing the relationship is in trouble.
Question 2:Does your partner feeling jealous make you feel wanted?
The answer was No
Sometimes people make their partner feel jealous because it shores up their self esteem, and makes them feel wanted and needed. A woman might flirt outrageously with another guy because she wants her boyfriend to see them and be upset. Really, if you´re feeling neglected, upsetting your partner isn´t the best way to fix the situation. Talk with your partner about healthy ways to gain the affection and attention you need.
Question 3:Do you dislike and/or pick on your friend´s boyfriend or girlfriend?
The answer was No, I can share my friend
You and your friend were tight - really tight. Then your friend went and started dating someone, and you never get to see your friend any more. When you do, half the time your friend brings along this dreg of a boyfriend/girlfriend. What do you do? First off, this is a normal part of relationship development. You can´t expect your friend to stay single forever to keep you company :) You need to find some way to balance things - maybe have a girl´s breakfast once a week, or a guy´s night out every Friday. Friendships and relationships are both extremely important parts of life, and both need to be nurtured! They certainly aren´t exclusive - having one should not mean the harm of the other.
Question 4:You broke up with someone - are you jealous of his/her new partner?
A better answer is No
When you break up with someone, there are often hard feelings. You definitely don´t want to be with that person any more. Still, when you see your ex in the mall with a new girl/guy, smiling and having fun, you get those pangs of jealousy. Why? After all, *you* didn´t want this person any more ... Jealousy isn´t just about worrying about someone breaking up your perfect relationship. Jealousy is also about someone disturbing your "idea" of how things should be. If you break up with your ex because he/she was a jerk, you want to think that YOU will now end up with someone perfect, and HE/SHE will be sad and lonely and regret the things done. It disturbs that "mental fantasy" if you then see your ex with someone that seems ´great´, especially if you yourself are alone. Be secure in what you do. You left your ex because you wanted to. What he/she does now doesn´t matter - you are free, and you WILL find someone worthy of what you offer. Don´t let him/her continue to hurt you in this way. Build a new fantasy in which it doesn´t matter *what* he/she does, that you will be happy because you are clear of the baggage, and you´ll find things are much rosier.
Question 5:Do you want your partner *not* to have opposite-sex friends?
The answer was No
Let´s say you´re female. It might be difficult for you to accept that your boyfriend has other female friends, and spends time with them. After all, he already has you. Why would he need other females in his life? Normally people have this sort of fear because they are afraid that another ´potential partner´ will lure the mate away from the relationship. Your relationship should be strong enough that you don´t have to live in a mountaintop retreat for it to survive! Having friends of both sexes, and all ages, and all races, creeds, colors, etc, is important in life. If you were blind, wouldn´t it be helpful for your mate to talk to other blind people, to get a more rounded understanding of the situation? The same is true for genders. Men who have female friends tend to understand some of the cultural burdens (or benefits, depending on how you look at it) that women work under. Those men are then often better able to work in a relationship, because they have more ´knowledge´ with which to understand the situation. If you are unsure about your relationship and think that your mate having an opposite-sex friend is a threat to it, it´s time to sit down with your mate and discuss ways to build up the trust and stability of the relationship. Trying to keep each other in isolation isn´t a long term solution.
Question 6:Are you jealous of your partner´s coworkers?
The answer was No
It´s easy to be jealous of your partner´s coworkers. Your partner is spending tons of time with them, maybe eating lunch with them, maybe going on business trips to fun places or working long hours on projects you don´t understand. A large part of your partner´s life is being spent with others, and it doesn´t involve you. Since for most people work is a necessary occupation, you need to find ways to feel more comfortable with this. If your own relationship is sound, your mate won´t be tempted by those others he meets. Don´t torment yourself over those ´other people´ - just concentrate on what you and your mate *do* have. Build your relationship into a strong, solid one, and you won´t have fears that it could fall apart because your partner´s new coworker is young and attractive. It also helps to learn more about what your partner does, to become, as much as you can, a ´part of this world´. If you can, go out to lunch with him/her sometimes, or go to corporate functions, or just learn about the projects. The more that this becomes ´your´ world too, the less threatening it will seem.
Question 7:How long do you think your current relationship will last?
# A few weeks
# A few months
# A few years
# As long as we can make it work - hopefully forever
The answer was As long as we can make it work - hopefully forever
This question may seem unrelated to jealousy, but studies have shown that people who have confidence and security in their relationship are unlikely to be jealous. They know they´re in it for the long run, they know that both partners are fully committed to this relationship. If you´re not thinking your relationship will last long, then it´s likely that you´d be jealous about it, because you see it as a tentative thing anyway. Examine why you don´t feel it will last, and figure out if this is what you want.
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6/25/2007 02:57:00 PM Y
Post title : jealousy issue
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Question: Why do I get so jealous when my partner talks to other people?
Answer: When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes, it felt like he or she was the only person in the room. As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you: You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?
When we are in a committed relationship, we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to fend off outside threats. In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry. But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.
When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is
a sign that jealousy has taken hold. Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart.
What causes jealousy?
If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you. That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.
1) You may feel insecure about your self-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up. Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.
2) You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so. Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.
3) You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to
establish safe boundaries within the relationship
establish safe boundaries within the relationship. Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.
4) Your mate is cheating on you. Cheating doesn't have to include sex; it often has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship. If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex, it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable.
Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.
Put your focus on building trust
Put your focus on building trust. If you've got some growing up to do, therapy may help. Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship. That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.
Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world.
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6/25/2007 06:14:00 AM Y
Post title : 空虚
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: 空虚 :[x]
开学的第一天早晨，
心是空虚的。。
带着万分不舍及不愿，
准备上学去了。。
心里想着的是他。
脑海里摸不去的影子也是他。
说来说去，
只是因为 “想念”
我好想周末快点到来，
因为，只要周末
我就能紧紧地拥抱他了。。
老公， 我好想你。。
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
6/24/2007 11:15:00 AM Y
Post title : Friday, 22nd June 2007
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Friday, 22nd June 2007 :[x]
Yoohoo~~ Let's go for a short gallery again!! =D
Super short though =p
Boyfriend took this. Hmmm.. What should I comment on?She should take a nicer one lahs!!OmG.. How is she gonna be a successful PHOTOGRAPHER ner? xP
whahahas.. See How HAPPY we are?!We simply enjoy 'MAD-ING' =Derr.. by the way, I can't figure out what's my finger pointin?? o.o"
I want a 大头照! I did it isn't it? hahas!I snatched the limelight away from BOYFRIEND!! lalala~~
WHAT THE HELL IS BOYFRIEND TRYING TO TAKE WITH THIS POSE?!She told me to pause there? =.=What a 'pic' huh boyfriend??
The effect.. it looks more like tiger skin there at my sleeve.. 0.0I look shocked neh? LOL
Way too bored.. giap giap the nose!! My cousin say I got 陈龙's nose la!! arghhhh...Thanks ar.. I've been living under HIS NOSE's shadow.. ='(How pathetic I am...!! >.<
The focus is NOT much a the leg.. It's actually trying to depict that I ain't wearin pants!!Oh dear~~ What is BOYFRIEND thinking in her mind?? o.0??She MUST be really pervert bout this.. *bleaghs!*
I show this cos there's MYＦＡＣＥ！！can you peeps spot MEME!! whahahahs..
Hubby is coming over later. I'm gonna hug him real tight!! I miss him dear loads!!! =DMwacks Mwacks!!Labels: personal
Saturday, June 23, 2007
6/23/2007 07:59:00 PM Y
Post title : Updated With Content Written By BOYFRIEND
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]:Updated With Content Written By BOYFRIEND :[x]
Simply too lazy to blog bout what happen so I decided to COPY n PASTE from BOYFRIEND'S BLOGGIE!! >.< hahas..
There it is .. (The SUBWAY paiseh-ness)
auntie: jiajia~ you got student card hor?
go help me buy subway hao mah? the student meal.
yin wei the who card bu jian arh.. :DD
me: huh? i nvr buy subway before leis..
whr the thing huh? got pic de horh?? *blur*
auntie: yaya.. thr inside got pic thr.
you point to them can liao.. haha.
me: orh. you sure horh? or i wait my friend come..
aiyah nvm luhs. i try, i try..
thn i walked to subway.. the feeling v ARHS~
thn i walked in.. the ppl looked me..
i bio and bio! AIYAH! cannot see anything -.-'
went back to my shop. BOYFRIEND THR! faster ask her o.o
we went back to subway.. we queue up.
me: eh see leis, got the student meal anot..
wayne: na li na li? jiu mei you arhs.. jiu kan bu dao.
jiu mei you arhs.. (missy jiu is here)
me: you arhs.. auntie say li mian you de..
is the dunno what $4.90 de.. you mei you? faster see..
wayne: mei you luhs.. EH EH! thr.. kan dao mei you?
me: na li? na ge huh? aiyah tell you got le..
wayne: you go order..
me: huh? dont want. you go.. *push her infront*
wayne: wei shen mo shi wo..
so she started to order..
waiter: order pls?
wayne: may i have a student meal?
waiter: choice of bread?
wayne: huh? *looked at me and nudge*
me: huh? what what bread?
waiter: choice of bread..........
wayne/me: HUH??
wayne: *point at pic of bread(S)*
me: shui bian luhs, zhe ge bi jiao hao chi..
me to waiter: this one, this one..
waiter: *stared at me*
me: *looked at wayne*
wayne: uh, the pa-mer-sen..
waiter: pa-mer-zon bread.
wayne: o.o'
me: zon luhs, sen sen sen..
waiter: *sliced the bread* order?
wayne: huh?????? what order?
me: what? you order loh..
wayne: mei you.. he ask us order..
me: *point to the sign* student meal loh.
waiter: ya, your order??
wayne: huh.. *lost*
me: not student meal mehs.....?
lady behind us: uh, i think you have to chose
from there.. *pointed to the board*
wayne: auntie yao shen mo?
me: huh? wo bu dong.. ta jiao wo mai
student meal er yi.. o.o"""
wayne: huh.. thn ta mei you gen ni jiang
yao shen mo mehs?
me: mei you.. ta jiao wo mai student meal er yi..
wayne: HUH?! da gei ta luhs! *passed phone to me*
me: wo mei you ta de dian hua~~!
waiter: *buay tahan*
wayne: arrrrggghhhh.. hui qu wen ta luhs.
me: thn zhe li leis??
wayne: arrrrggghhhh.. *walked away*
me to waiter: uh.. i come back ltr!! *RAN*
(The Focus Is The One In Bold- something which I comment on =p)
reached cine at 12:19. started work at 12:20.cuz i was so super late ytd! so, early for today :Dhaha! after quite some time, boyfriend came!woohoo~ luckily she wasnt wearing bearbear shirt.lols. okays. we did nothing o.o' BORING LUHS.WHOOTS! THN! the girl nxt stall, bag kanna stolen!the ppl upstairs saw and shouted to us. but LATE luhs.the couple dunno run whr. they said the guy suspicious.SUSPICIOUS STILL DONT XIAO XIN LEIS! -.-' haiyo..thn everyone like gather watch show liddat. LOL! ;Xguess what boyfriend told me! HOHEHAHAHAH! she said: wah, ru guo hor.. wo kan dao ta men na na ge bag, thn gei wo zhua dao.. wah, SHUANG LEIS! :X she is v v v super duper imaginative. lols. whoops!thn she pei the mei mei go police station report. LOL! thn BF PS ME go home. =( mamade. bad luhs! hais.i was so freaking bored can?!?! like idiot talk to myself.i went to count the number of tops auntie has! lols.ahhh! thn go disturb auntie, uncle, auntie and uncle.;X
To BOYFRIEND:
I'm seriously tired!! Don't blame me nahs.. hahah.. I LOVE YOU anyway!! I know you do too! xD
whahahahas. [I apologise for hanyu pinyin and not chinese character itself. =X whahahas. BF!! PS neh! =D]Labels: personal
6/23/2007 10:29:00 AM Y
Post title : The Sun After The Rain
♥ You'll never know the real me.
情是多云偶阵雨。。
雨过总会天青的哦~！=D
Boyfriend wants me to update my blog. DEMO DEMO (Jap: But But)!!!
I wanna update with picsy picsy!! =p
Get my hint? Whahahhhahahas
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
6/20/2007 05:20:00 PM Y
Post title : The Wake Up Call
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: The Wake Up Call :[x]My ex, Lawrence, called me just now.I thought deeply at what he told me." In a relationship, there shouldn't be any suspicions, curfews, doubts, or restrictions. Whether or not he is outside with who, it's his life.Whether or not he is seeing other people, it's his life.Whether or not he is out with friends without telling, it's his life.As long as he still thinks of u, still comes back to u, why ask so much?"Indeed, no one likes to be questioned.Lawrence really made me think deep and thorough.What's the point of asking? What's with that doubting? If he really loves me, he'll be back to me right?I'm sorry Jeff. I know nothing I say can change or turn things back to how it was. I wish the best out of u. If this is really just a break for you to think, I'm sure, there'll still be chance for us to be back together. But if you think it's really the end.. I'll respect your decision.Just to let you know, from now on, whatever you do is your life. Are you willing to keep me in your heart?? Just leave a small place, even if it is the most insignificant one..I'm Waiting..Labels: personal
6/20/2007 02:45:00 PM Y
Post title : wo yi wei
♥ You'll never know the real me.
自以为很坚强，其实说穿了。。眼泪一直在掉。。
一点都不快乐，一点都不好受。。
我根本就不想放手。。
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
6/19/2007 11:30:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Courage :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Courage :[x]How much courage it took me to say it..How much courage it took me to let go..How much courage it took me to force a smile..How much courage I need..Well, it ended. Will it ever 'restart' again? There's love. I swear there is. But somehow, I thikn what he needs now is a break.Loving someone isn't about having him neh?Tears flow~~~ Like river?? hahas.It's in abundance!! =DHow happy can one be to be freed??I hope he will.. though.. i'm not. hais..I said I wouldn't let go so easily le right?? But I guess, everything needs to come to an end bahs. He's tired.. really tired le..I don't want a strain relationship too. I know I'm no happier without him. but as long as he is.. I'll brave through thsese period of sadness bahs.. gambate!!加油哦, 张玮宁! 要他高兴的话，自己就要开心吗！^.^我做得到，对吧？？ ='(Labels: personal
6/19/2007 11:29:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: 再 LOVE 一次 :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: 再 LOVE 一次 :[x]
这次，我决定原谅。也许会被说傻，被说笨，但我还是想给彼此多一次机会。
我没有那么坚强，没想象中如此坚强。。一觉醒后，我以为一切烦恼、顾虑都渐渐消失。。
可惜，我好像错了。脑袋无法把不快乐的事情删掉，而我也一直又一直的想着。。
是什么地方出了问题？我知道，“谎言” 无可避免。
曾经读过这么一句话：“少了信任的 [爱情]， 还叫 [爱情] 吗？”
现在想想， 若从一开始就不去问，也许现在的我们仍能自在的在一起吧？
我不知道未来的我还会不会在他生命里。。但我想珍惜现在。
因为爱的太深，所以受的伤害也来的深。
我希望这一次的决定，我不会后悔。
我愿意让伤痛再来一次。。
我愿意再爱一次。。
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
6/17/2007 05:27:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Boredom Feels :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Boredom Feels :[x]
I miss HIM badly. Having someone to love is never a bad thing. However, missing someone is always kinda torturing.. or maybe.. almost everytime - to me
I don't wanna depend too much on him. I gave him his way and well, he can do whatever he wants to do. Be it playing game or so.
Sometimes, I feel the distance. Was it due to our communication wise? I don't know. We're like 'boy-girlfriends'. It's more or less a status and misses that keep us together. I know and shall understand your stand. That is what I should do right? But misses kill and I'm seriously ill.
I got your love and I admit that I'm selfish to ask for more. I know.. I just got to be that independent..
Hubby, why don't we seem to have much to talk about? I hate this gap between! I hate it.. hen si le!! ='(
I don't wanna just be that girl who's standing beside you, holding your hand..
Can you sense how much I miss..?
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6/17/2007 11:58:00 AM Y
Post title : 10 Turnoffs That Make Good Guys Wave Goodbye
♥ You'll never know the real me.
10 Turnoffs That Make Good Guys Wave GoodbyeBy Jeff Cohen Special to Yahoo! Personals Updated: Jun 16, 2007You're sitting across from a great guy you met on Yahoo! Personals. You can't remember the last time a first date went so well. You're attracted to the guy. He has all the qualities you're looking for in a mate. He would even get your mom's approval.
The date ends and you actually have butterflies. Not only does this guy have second and third date potential, but you can smell a relationship. Unfortunately, a week passes and the cold reality sinks in that this great guy has no intention of ever seeing you again.Where did you go wrong?
How could you have misunderstood what you thought was great chemistry? Maybe it's time you learned the top 10 turnoffs that make good guys wave goodbye. If any of these fictional female daters sound like you, it's time for a first-date makeover.
1)Misleading Maggie:
Her profile says no kids, athletic and raking in the big bucks. The first date reveals two young kids, an extended waistline and unemployment checks.
Nothing says trust issues for a guy more than lies from the get-go
Nothing says trust issues for a guy more than lies from the get-go.
2)Insecure Ilene:
She reads into every comment a guy makes. She wants to know right away if date can be tomorrow. She asks you to call the minute you get home. This clingy nature screams of a potential needy girlfriend lacking independence. 3)Third-Degree Donna:
The cross-examination begins before the menus arrive. The questions are coming fast and furious, and the guy begins to feel like the defendant on the stand in a criminal trial. If a guy feels stuck under the interrogation lights, he'll run for the hills.4)Tardy Tina:
She arrives late, she no-shows, she changes plans last-minute, she loses his number, she flat-out just doesn't respect a guy's time. Fashionably late is one thing; keeping a guy waiting 30 minutes or no-showing is unacceptable.
5)High-Maintenance Hilda:"Thanks for taking me to this nice restaurant, but couldn't you get a table by the window?"
The feeling that nothing is ever good enough makes a guy quit trying to impress
The feeling that nothing is ever good enough makes a guy quit trying to impress. A simple thank you for a nice dinner is a better way to go.
6)Chatterbox Charlene: The conversation doesn't have to be 50 percent talking and 50 percent listening, but if she does all the talking it feels more like a seminar than a date. Charlene's opposite cousin, Pulling Teeth Patricia, is equally unsettling, making the guy do all the work.
7)Still-Hurting Sally:
First dates are notorious for spilling the beans on what went wrong with prior relationships. Sharing an amusing anecdote is good; making it clear you're not over your ex-boyfriend is a definite no-no.
8)Game Player Gina:"Maybe I'll kiss you goodnight, maybe I won't."
Good guys like to know where they stand
Good guys like to know where they stand. They leave the game-playing for the sports field. There's nothing wrong with flirting, but just know when it crosses over into deception and confusion.
9)Conceited Colleen: "Any guy would be lucky to have me." Guess what, the great guy across the table is also a real catch. Stop assuming every guy doesn't deserve you, and then you'll be on your way to actually landing a good one.
10)Matrimony Maureen: He dips his egg roll in duck sauce when all of a sudden she spills the beans on what they should name their kids. Intense relationships can be exciting for a good guy, but walking down the aisle before you walk each other home for the first time is a turn-off.
Labels: love
6/17/2007 09:20:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: The Love We Know :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: The Love We Know :[x]
爱情是个非常奇妙的东西。
它：
-爱来就来，说走就走
-没有理由
-偶尔甜蜜，偶尔却刺伤了那脆弱的心灵
-有时嫉妒，有时伤心难过，有时又使人怨恨
试问：“爱，真的这么难吗？”
它可以让被伤害的人红了眼眶但还是笑着原谅。
它也同时能使一个人不再相信爱情这玩意儿。
它附带希望，让人对所爱的人有了期待，让人有了想长乡厮守、天长地久的念头。
但它那偶然的绝情与无情，人抵挡得了吗？
上帝并没有安排你生命里所有好或坏的遭遇
即使如此，就当作是一种考验啊！
人生不可能一辈子风平浪静，不是吗？
让你所遇到的人，带你多认识及了解这世界的善与恶吧。
“知人知面不知心” - 交友一定要小心
但我还是觉得且希望在读这 post 的所有朋友能抱着一个平常心去对待周遭的人、事、物。
若真的，你认识的那人来者不善，你会知道吗？也许吧。。
对我而言，生命里的每个人都是一篇新的文章。
在这精彩的文章里，它可能带些苦涩，也可能带些甜味儿
不管是什么，那内容都丰富了我的人生，使我那白白的纸张多了几许颜色。
给受了伤的男男女女：
爱情本来就不在我们掌控之中。
对于失去了的爱，也许永远都不会回来了。
因此，在眼泪流完过后，就让微笑把它带过，重新开始新的一篇文章吧！
之前那可能轰轰烈烈或平淡无际的故事，就让它成为你纸上的颜色吧！
也许会退色，但偶尔还是值得回忆， 不是吗？ =)
爱的离开，是人该学着放手的时候。
很痛，对吧？
有时还会不停责问老天为何残酷的一直让你学着如何‘放手’。
我们都不懂，爱是好还是坏。
所以不少人宁愿选择不再触碰它。
但请不要天真的以为自己够坚强， 能够抵挡所有的情欲。我说过，爱--说来就来，说走就走。
我们无需刻意避开，反而该坦然地面对。
反省反省，爱不会是结束你生命的元素。
切记,
爱情- 没有理由。
让它带你慢慢摸索吧。。
Attached or Single - It doesn't matter.
Cos everything is just a matter of time and fate.
Let nature take its course. Everything will be clear down the road.. Continue to endure and never stop or turn back half way~~! ^_^
Labels: love personal
Friday, June 15, 2007
6/15/2007 01:08:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Memories So Vague :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Memories So Vague :[x]
Since I’m freaking bored, some past memories just come flashing across my mind. Memories like? Hmm.. love and relations of course! =D
Well, who does remember many of their EXs or who was the one that they feel first for?
I’m no any exceptions though. BUT I do remember some.. or most? Hahas
Had my first crush in Primary 5! He was none other than Mr TAN YUREN! He was kinda popular those days back in pri sch. I don’t really know what it was that attracted me? Hahas. Supposingly, he knew I liked him before? Lols
I was so into him for a year plus. We ain’t in same class in P6 but I still liked him a lot that year. All feelings finally faded at the end of P6. =)
The first time ever I had a ‘dear’ is when I was in Sec1. To be honest, we didn’t meet before at all. I don’t remember too when we started calling each other such intimidately. However, I was kinda crazy over him I think? Hahas. I stopped all these nonsense when everything became clear to me that that wasn’t what I want. It’s just a UNKNOWN feeling.. An UNKNOWN someone. ^_^
First real boyfriend was BENJAMIN ONG WEI LIANG. A freaking ‘xiao bai lian’. This is the most vivid expression I have towards him. He has lotsa female friends. Nothing much to be surprise at. (not cos he’s handsome or what k? -.-) Well, 5-6 of his EXs.. or should I say He is the EX of 5-6 of US? (‘US’ refers to my sisters and I). He was DUMPED by US. And he is like so proud of it to introduce US (that day when quite some of us were there too). Hello?? What are you so PROUD of? -.-“
Not to mention he actually introduced me as ‘This is wayne. The xxx’s sister lorh’ to his female friend whom he was with that time. FUCK! I won’t be talking bout civilized when it comes to HIM! FCUKING man. THAT friend of YOURS need NOT know whose sister I AM! IDIOT!
Another freaking EX I had was Ian. Don’t remember his full name already. He lives in private property. Quite loaded I suppose? Who cares. I abhor rich guys who think that GIRLs are all out for $$.
He actually see one of my friend, Cheryl. And.. guess what?? He HUGGED her!! Well, how tolerant can you be when your boyfriend is seeing someone especially when the SHE is someone you know? Cheryl told me not to believe in him. Ian told me she said I was a flirt. Ian thought I was after his $$. Yaya~ whatever. So what if you’re rich? I ain’t THAT kind of girls that see $$ as LIFE. I was really mad at both of them. Whose story should I buy? Well, later after much thinking. I decided to just stick on more to Cheryl’s cos friends are forever. I wouldn’t want to lose a friendship because of some stupid guys.
Had the first ‘TRUE’ love on 30/05/05. He is Mr TAN WEI JIAN EUGENE. We were together for 7 months plus. But he left for another girl. He was the first to let me realize how a ‘fast’ heartbeat was like. I was touched by his love and sincerity at the beginning. However, I can really confess that he was a typical SENSITIVE and POSSESSIVE boyfriend. He minds a lot when I was with him. I can’t imagine how tolerant I was that time. I gave in a lot to him even if I’m right, I have no right to actually rebut him. He thinks he is always right? Lols
To be exact, we had lotsa problems way before SHE was into our life. She’s an innocent Third party. But I hated her a lot at first. Not now lerh. =) Gene was the First to let me feel how hurt a break up can be and that how misses can kill. I cried 3 months, always hoping that there’s a chance he’ll come back to me. But when that day really arrived, I can comment that.. time really fades everything that once feel so deep.
The next guy I really feel for was LAWRENCE (19.04.06). I don’t remember his name in full but I know it’s SKT-in short. He is 5 years older than me. He taught me that in love, none can be too certain what future will bring. Also he said that I still have to go through poly life.. and he was in NS.. sooner or later will be working. Different phases of life will bring us to meet many different people and thus none of us can be sure that love will always be the same cos we won’t really have that lot of time to spend with each other. He went through a lot with one of his EX known as Jasmine. A pretty babe I suppose? J
He talked quite abit bout her and I knew he can’t get her off his mind yet. He was the first who spend 11 bucks for buying his ‘pride’. Lolls. It was actually a toy machine found in arcade where the machine will push the toys one. Like one of the episode in Mr Bean when he was playing the coins one?(If you have watched MR Bean in e earlier days )
The third guy I feel for is my current hubby!! (*07-01-07*)=] He is the first to buy me a couple ring!! ^_^ Do you know how happy I am?! Lolls. I love him loads. There are times when we almost go on separate ways. BUT, I’ll cherish him real lots. Never gonna let him go so easily already! Whahahhahs~~ Love Him! Mmwarks! <33Labels: personal
6/15/2007 11:27:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: Home-ing :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Home-ing :[x]
Am SUPER DUPER bored!!!! Arghh~~
Ain’t going out I suppose. Gonna rot at home! Whahahs
Is it a good news for mummy? Lols. I’ve been ‘flying’ here and there so much. Hee =P
Anyway, went to CWP with XiaoTing yesterday (Thursday).
I had fun!! Though we did nothing much. Even while buying bubble tea I was telling her that I MISS HER!! Lols.
(It’s heartfelt words. Ain’t a bi- or les! )
Oh ya.. To comment on my COMMON meals.. I had LJS’s CHICKEN POTATO SALAD!!
It don’t really look delicious or yummy here but it does taste good to me! I’m so into it!
Omg~~ addicted liao xP
And now.. today.. I got no potato salad to eat! Plus I’m broke AGAIN!! =X
Sadded! Sobx sobx.
Know what?? I got a sudden craving for PAPAYA MILK!! Can I have some?? Anyone? Kekes
I MISS JEFF la!!! arghhhLabels: personal
6/14/2007 10:07:00 AM Y
Post title : yay! =D
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Finally :[x]
Yippee!! I got the way to post! whahahahas
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007
6/12/2007 11:06:00 PM Y
Post title : Missing Him
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I Love Jeff Tee Bon San!! xD
<33>
We're STILL AS LOVING AS ALWAYS NOW!!
Not gonna let you go anymore! =D
muacks
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6/12/2007 09:04:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: An Entry In My Diary :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: An Entry In My Diary :[x]
[8.40am] Tuesday12th June 2007
Everything kind of ended. It's this date at around 8 am early this morning. A bad wake up call. Everything stopped on this 157th day. I can't control my tears. Though I decided to let go, there are still so much that I wanna tell him.. Is it too late? If so, all I wanna say for the last time is.. "I Love You". My life for this short 5 months has been beautified by you.
Will he ever realise how hard it was to let go of him? My heart aches, my tears fell, I'm tearing apart, I'm breaking down. It's not like I could just get any anaesthetic to numb myself! It's all real this time. I tried to salvage. I wanted to hold on to you. But again he told me that he is tired of everything. Being with him is hard I admit. I needa understand him real lots and I needa be able to 体谅 him. But I suppose, it's really hard on him too to always try to convince me of his love towards me bahs. I'm sorry that I am always doubting. I'm really sorry.. But just to let you know, I felt your love.. and I know it's for real too. You loved me faithfully and truthfully. I am thankful to have you afterall..
You wanted me to be happy, told me to drink plenty of water and take good care of myself. I will my dear. I hope you will too.
I requested earlier on for the ring you're wearing (Our couple ring) if you don't want it anymore. But surprisingly you said you'll continue wearing it. I am happy. And for once, I thought there might be a chance of us getting back together. But I know.. it's impossible ='(
Should I be calling you Jeff now? It sounds so wierd to me. Can I choose to still call you hubby? (I know I can't). Everything ended. I should stop holding back right? It's YOU that I smiled and cried for.
You're my favourite hello yet hardest ... goodbye.
I Miss You~
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My friends, I think I'll be alright. Please be by my side like you people always did.
I guess I should be happy..
Labels: personal
Sunday, June 10, 2007
6/10/2007 12:29:00 AM Y
Post title : bored
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Bored :[x]
Slept at around 5 plus yesterday(Sat). I'm super energetic now! =X whahahas~
So bored that I went to do this thingy..
Guys Like That You're Fun |
 You're the type of girl guys brag about knowingThat's because you're cool, funny, and laid backYou're smart enough to know how to be one of the guysBut flirty enough to know how to make them all want you |
What Do Guys Like About You?
I'm the same as my BOYFRIEND!! kekes.. Jia, got see got see? hahas
Boyfriends of the same kind! Lols
Anyway, missing Ting these few days. Told Boyfriend again that I miss XiaoTing and she was like =.= "think I should go overseas a couple of days too"
hahas I Will Miss Boyfriend Too!! =D
K lahs.. should be heading to town later in the late afternoon cos I won't have any plans either? i suppose.. ahhaaa
Gotta save before com shut down on its own! =X
Tata~ ^.^
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