=.= Am I really CHEEKY??!

Ok, this is really STUPID! lols

Yellow huh?? hmmm... 0.o?

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if it helps you figure me out,

i take you for who you are..

i'm sorry for whatever has happened,

but i will be there for you,

and i may not say the right thing all the time,

but i always mean it...

i want to be with you, sex or not...

it's not the act that makes me want you...

it is you as a person,

the way you make me smile,

the way you make me laugh,

the way i feel when you lay next to me...

it's you... i can't ask for anything more...

Boy, do you know..
I'd rather have bad times with you,

than good times with someone else.

I'd rather be beside you in a storm,

than safe and warm by myself.

I'd rather have hard times together,

than to have it easy apart.

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart. - that's YOU

And to my Dearest Man..

I'll Never say goodbye cos I know I still want to try;

I'll never give up cos I still feel that I can take it;

I'll never say I no longer love YOU cos I know can't let go..

Man, Everytime ..

Late at night when all the world is sleeping,

I stay up and think of you.

And I wish on a star,

that somewhere you are thinking of me too - will you?

Without You, My Life Will Simply Tear Apart.

It's YOU who made me strong..

Boy, I just wanna say "I Love You"

-before everything is too late.

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[x]: Love's Tidbits :[x]

Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...

The girl started to cry softly and said:Then you don't love me...The two continued to walk in silence. They reached the girls home.

Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.

He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her noseand whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough..."

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I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol.
Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish.
Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .
Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric.
Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric.
For she was already attractive enough.
Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care.
Carol wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't were spaghetti-straps or tubes.
So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn.
For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Cathlyn was labele d as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol.


Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Carol never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Eric.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her.


But she never forgot Eric.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.
Eric began to realise.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.


Cathlyn broke up with Eric later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Carol.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
"Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"



Eric felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Eric began to change into someone better.
Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Carol accepted him for himself .
She changed him.
Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.


One day, Carol didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them.
But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Carol was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Carol forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Eric for the last time.
Eric rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Carol was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.


"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."


"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed.
He still couldn't accept Carol's death.
He had only spent a month with Carol.



A month. But Carol changed his life in a way.
A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.

Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us.
Until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret.
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts.
It's better to tell someone how much you love them.
Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them.
You'll regret Love is. When we fight till the very last minute.
Just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

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[x]: Fruitful Thursday :[x]

yoohoo~~ Bro WeiRong came to drive me today!! ^.^ kekes..
Hmm.. headed to my aunt's house first to take the camera then went Lot1 for lunch.
After eating, Bro treat me bubble tea~! ^.^ hehes..

Actuall going back but then Bro wanna go see if there's any spider thingy that he can hang in his car.
And so.. we went up to MiniToons then Comics Connection then More Than Words.

Well, he didn't see any spider thingy that he wanted. lols.

I called back home and well.. Mum forgot to buy the things I wanted AGAIN. The first time is foolscap which obviously she told me..

Day1 :

Mum: "aiyah.. you mei you xie zai zhi shang. wang ji le."
(I forgot already la.. Also never write on a paper.)
Me: -.-"

Day2 :

Me: "ni you mai ma??" (got buy?)
Mum: "mei you la. wo ben lai ji de de, then gen bie ren jiang hua jiang then xiang bu qi lai yao mai shen me le lo" (Don't have lah.. I did remember that I need to buy then talk to other ppl then after talking I cannot recall what I wanna buy le lo)
Me: =.=""


Well, this time.. I told her to help me buy snacks and tidbits cos she is working in Prime Supermarket so it is rather convenient la. THEN?! grrrr...

Nvm.. decided to get some for myself for tomorrow's SPORTS DAY!! It's the LAST SD that I'll be having worh.. hehes

I'm looking forward to the cheerleading part!! My prettaye XiaoTing is her house's cheerleader!! Ooolalas~~ I'm gonna take her photo!! And get her autograph?? hohoho xD

Anyway, I intended to pay for my own expenses. However, while looking around.. I saw CHOCOLATE !! There's some fillings in it one.. hahas.. And so.. Bro offered to buy for me.

At More Than Words.. Nets can only be used if you spend more than 20 bucks? Hmm.. no choice, we headed down to the ATM and he withdrew some money.

Bought..

1) a packet of Disney Marshmallow
2) LOOK Parfait ALa Mode chocolate
3) Petit Plus Torte Almond Biscuit
4) Coris Whistle Candy
5) a small snoopy Notebook

Total : $ 10.20


Bought only the first four items at first. Then while he was paying up at the cashier I went looking around. Then we saw notebooks and he picked up this cute lil one . Since it is only $1.90, he deicided to get one for me.. even though I said that I don't know what I can do with it? hahas..

I used to buy notebooks but they ended up either half used of less than that! =X

Bro said it was cheap afterall so just got it for me!!! weeee~~~

Happily went back home after that. =D


Thanks Bro ~~! ^_^



I'm glad that I've had you back to me.. Your Love Is Why I Am Living Happily Now. {ZWX}

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The finger marks have obviously lightened down. Can You make up how the red marks are like??

Try slapping yourself tight at the face. You see lines of red finger marks? That's it. ^.*

This is the 2-cm bruise on my arm there.

The picture doesn't really show it being very serious though.

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[x]: Early Home Sweet Home :[x]

Did not attend the Math Remedial today.
Not in the mood?? Hmmm.. Anyway, I keep having flashbacks of that scene.. It sends shivers down my spine everytime I recall it.

He's really inhuman!

Rubbed the 2-cm bruise which is on my arm. It is getting redder!! >.<>
Bro WeiRong drove me home today. He sent me up to my house. Isn't he just simply too good???
I mean.. he doesn't live near my house area.. or anywhere near CCK, and despite the fact that he still got a function to attend later in the evening, he agreed to send me home!! =D

Hehes..

Initial plan was Wen Sheng, my korkor de friend to send me home. But decided to go home early.. so I got no choice but to ask someone esle to send me home.kekes.

WS text me saying that he planned to bring me go eat la! ouhhhh..
I missed the eating part! =p whahahahas.. just joking


shall blog again.. tata~

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[x]: The Fear :[x]


She was being molested at the staircase.

It was in between fourth to fifth level at 9.20pm +

Her chest showed red marks and her arm has a blue black. Everything hurts.

She was walking home. She saw this CHINESE teenage guy in BROWN and BERMUDAS when she was walking home.

She saw him entered into the lift of BLK 282. She paid little attention to him and as usual went up the stairs.

However, she saw him when she was at level four. He grabbed her breast from behind. Real hard. She screamed. She struggled. He ran away.

There was nothing she could do at that time. Heavy books on her hand, carrying a bag. No free hand. Immobolised.

She picked up her things, she went up her house. She CRIED.

She related the incident to her mother and her mother called her dad. Her brother went to pick up her girlfriend in case that guy strikes again.

She called HIM. She was sorry for not taking care of herself when she did promise that she will for many times.

Honestly, it was not really very late, how was SHE gonna know when will be the next time he strikes again?

One of the policemen said it was dangerous to take the stairs. But the lift is also far what!

She still gotta take the stairs at either 7th or 5th storey.

That frightening moment passed yet tears rolled down again and again.

NO ONE was THERE.

She can't take care of herself. She is useless. She hurt herself.
Til now, she still feel the pain at the chest. She don't feel like going out of the house. She wanna stay home.

She is afraid that she will see that guy AGAIN.

Who Knows if he would have hidden somewhere the next time and just prey on her ?!

She don't wanna go school.

I wanna stay home.. I really am scared....

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[x]: Friday's Pre-Racial Harmony Day Commeration :[x]


Woohoo~~~ Didn't manage to blog yesterday cos I reached home LATE. Midnight is considered late ok?? hahas.. Plus I have Oral Pract with teachers in school the next morning.. which is just now la. ahahas

Managed to get SIX malay MALE costumes. 3 from a friend and 3 from my neighbours!! Those malay guys damn friendly lah.. lols

And.. gues who was theone who made me took up the courage to approach my neighbours??

it was..

EEFENNIE my BOYFRIEND xD

Hahas.. She said I will never be that bold enough.. just like the last time that she merely asked me to asked the few people in the library if they could give up the table for us as they were like not using it? BF said I walked there then turned back ..Felt like I'm so DAN XIAO!! grrrrrr*

Anyway.. I did approached the malay neighbours of mine sitting at the pavilion beside the playground.. but of course.. scared and nervous. LOL.


ME: err.. hello.. *wave shyly* eh.. do you all have malay traditional costume that can lend??
THEM: *look at each other* Why?? You need it ar?
ME: ya.. can can??
Guy A: oh.. racial harmony ar? you need it when??
ME: I need it now.. cos tomorrow needa wear already.
GuyA: You what school? secondary?
ME: Swiss cottage..
Guy B:*eyes widen*wah..! Swiss cottage.. a.. must lend..
*Started asking his friends checking how many they can lend*
You need what? Male one?? You see my size la.. too big cannot lah. hahas
ME: hahas. Can la can la..
Guy A: What size you need?? How many?
ME: any size. As many as possible?? ^.^
Guy B: You needa give us at least a number what..
ME: How many can you guys lend??
Guy B: ermm.. 3 or 4 I think?
ME: oh.. can can!!

DUCK!! I'm sick and tired of this COMPUTER!!!! Didn't managed to save my post before it hang.. and I'm seriously pissed to type AGAIN n AGAIN!!!!!!
AGGHHHH!!!! DUCK x Trillion!!!

Forget it.. see photos ba.. (MORE to be uploaded once I receive them from friends..)


The THREE Japanese TAI TAI!!! xD
Wayne and Eefennie~~I'm sorry if the acting cute part is 'disturbing'! whahahhahas.. You choose to see it ! xP
Okok.. Let your eyes relax.. A normal one!! buahhahahas. =D

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我只是他生命里的二氧化碳。。看不见，也不需要

The thought that he isn't missing that much;
The thought that he will never realise if I were to disappear;
The thought that he will sooner or later be taken by other girl;
The thought that he was once the one who loved me so much;
The thought that he said how much he needed me..


Yet.. everything just never seems to be the way we said it would be.
Like any other relationships, those promises, sweet-talks, etc, they never meant to be kept.

Indeed, how sure are we? How predictable is this world?

明明知道自己早已在他心中那重要的地方消失了，为什么我的心还是放不下？
这样的过日子，一直想着他，但他又多想我呢？
到一要到什么时候，我才能真正的放手。。

不被他需要的我，真的好难过。。

断了线的风筝，根本就不会再回来了。。 ='(

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[x]: Tearing Apart.. I'm bleeding :[x]

I thought I can forgo this relationship;

I thought I will be alright;

I thought I can live on my on;

I thought I will not miss him;

I thought I can end it happily;

I thought I will not cry again;


But things just happened to be the opposite.
He was supposed to meet me. I mean we agreed to meet. But after seeing him with another classmate de photo, guess what?

Image of him with other girls just run wild in my mind. I pictured him being able to smile so genuinely with friends than me.
Perhaps.. I’m just thinking too much. But.. isn’t it true?
He is better off without me and our problems.
Or maybe .. which is no longer important.. that I’m just another typical ‘unreasonable’ and ‘sensitive’ girl who thinks a lot.


Boy, no matter how much I want or need you, you just never seem to realize.
These days are torturing me deep down. Trying to act a strong front and yet my heart is bleeding. Will you ever know?


I said umpteen times of ‘takecare’ etc that simply ended the conversation with you online. Yet again and again I tried to find a topic or question that will keep it going. What am I doing?

I never wanted to stop any conversations with you. But you will never know how I feel. Why..?


I felt so emotional. About to type things on how exactly I feel. But then, I hesitated.

You won’t be happy this way. You’ll only feel worse. I ‘laughed’ in msn. I tried not to let you think I’m not ok. I tried to the happy and cheerful me.

Who else will know that I’m crying here? Who else will know that my heart is bleeding?


Knowing that he will be coming, I bathed and decided to fetch him from the station. However.. haish. I just don’t feel as if he really wanted to come ON HIS OWN ACCORD that much. He said he’ll do anything just to make me smile. But will I?

I’ll be so happy to see him.. yet how happy can I be compared to him wanting to come himself and not because of me?!


Guys are insensitive. Or maybe, cos he no longer have to think of me. He doesn’t seem to know.. that I just wanna see him so much.

My heart is tearing apart when he said that I’ll find a better guy or things that he thought would make me feel happier than to be with him.

He wanted me to smile. A MUST. But.. how am I suppose to? Tears are falling.. trying to act that I’m alright…how long can I take it?


说了不要掉眼泪,但还是做不到..

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[x]: Eventful Saturday :[x]

Went gym then met up with friends. All three of them wear gothic la! Including girlfriend who initially told me she not really wearing too goth. =.=

Went to downtown east where the cosplay event is held. It's til tml!!
Anyway, did saw lotsa characters. Like those in Bleach, Naruto, chobits, etc etc.
There were sure MANY photographers and camera girls and guys!!
Oh well, the three of them were being taken photograph of too. =)
Ate at the foodcourt and down to town. Basically, there was this beatbox thingy. Woah~ That guy sure is pro la!! Or should I say beatbox is just so amazing?! LOls.

I was wondering... why does he have such skills or so to be so gd in beatbox!!!
Won't he feel tired?? I mean.. his mouth? hahas.


I am seriously tired of typing. That is why I'm just naming the main things that happened today. Had fun. Enjoyed. But at the same time..

I am missing him dear loads.

These fun and laughter just can't seem to wash out his face in my mind.
He appears before me whenever I close my eyes.
Not a day pass that I don't think of him at all.
Will he ever walk back in from that door he left?

hais.. I needa be happy and STRONG!!! I can do it!! xD
Jiayou oh wayne~~


Ok. that's it. Shall blog again other day. Nite peeps!

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[x]: Happy Friday 13! :[x]

Had Chemistry test on ORGANIC CHEM, ALKENES n ALKANES, MACRMOLECULE, CARBOXYLIC ACIDS and ALCOHOL.
Does it look like a BIG topic test?? o.0
Well, I didn't really pay much attention during lessons and I know I'm done for it cos I didn't study much for the test too. But taking the test marked the end of scheduled school lesson.

Had English extra lesson. Was supposed to start at 240pm due to the muslim but was carried forward to 130-3(but it ended ard half an hr later). Anyway, it's only two students that are going to pray in mosque so it won't be much of a problem ya. ^_^

Names were being called and those were the students who scored less than 15/20 for their SA1's oral and they have to be tested by a I-Don't-Know-Where-She-Is-From-Or-Who-She-Is lady. She looks quite young though supposedly in her early 20s? hahas.

I was of course HAPPY that I WASN'T being call on BUT, well as among them were most that I was going gym with, I got no choice but to stay til 5 plus with them.

By the way, since it's FRIDAY THIRTEEN, known to be a bad luck day, I shall comment that..

I'M BEING HIT BY THE BALL THRICE!!!-all thanks to ALVIN's superb kicking and aiming skills =.="
Well, went to gym and did exercise for 40 min. 20 for track mill and 20 for the look-like-bicycle equipment. hahas. As long as I perspire much enough, I'm satisfied LOL.

Walked back to near school area there cos meeting WeiRong Bro, he agreed to fetch me maybe to dinner or what then drive me home. Initial plan was to meet at the MRT station, but I was so ADDICTED to my PAPAYA milk that I went back to buy one at a shop nearby. The stall girl still recognise me I think? hahas. I only went twice before, but both times I ordered the same drink.

Went in and ordered my P.milk and when she handed me the drink, she realised she added PEARLS!! Well, I never order it with pearl so think she feels quite apologetic bahs. She said sorry more than twice! Luckily, she didn't collect the extra 30 cents for the pearl. I saved my thirty cents? hahas.

Waited for few mins before bro actually found his way to where I said I was. hahas. He handed over a plastic bag. Guess what??

It's CHOCOLATES!!!! xD
I mentioned that I wanna eat chocolates in my MSN personal message, and he really did buy it. Lols. Such a nice brother I have!!
He bought not just ONE but THREE.(Merci, Hershey's:Cookies n Creme, Cookies n Chocolate) OMG. I'm gonna be SO FAT!! grrrr. But it's ok! I'm having regular exercise. NO gain No lose. hahas
He drove me to eat JAPANESE FOOD!!! woolala~~
It's NEW GARO JAPANESE RESTAURANT located at No.6 Chun Tin Road. Somewhere around bukit timah there.
I had a fried salmon don, but I didn't manage to finish the rice! Too loaded with fish and egg. HAHA. Then he ordered salmon sashimi. YUMMY!!! Can I have more next time? ^.^ whahhhahahas Was bloated and felt kinda sinful. lols. Did exercise yet eat so much, what is the burning of calories for then? heee x)

Nvm. I’m going gym AGAIN!! Saturday morning awaits me~~ whahhas. K lahs.. gotta go prepare le. TATA~

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[x]: But A Dream :[x]

Dreamt of my birthday last night. lols.
how I wish I can continue to dream in such xingfu de lalaland!! hurrhurr.

I receive lots n lots of prezzie know?! Even from people in my dream that I thought would most probably forget it!! And and.. they're all big big presents!
One of which from my uncle is a LAPTOP! Gosh~~ I want a real one for my 17th birthday? whahhahhas.

Anyway, was awaken by my phone's alarm. TIME TO GET BACK TO REAL LIFE!! arghhhh..

Missed him. But after bathing and being sober once again, I know.. letting go is what I have to do now.

Saranghae saranghae~~
Though not being together, I still love him! Lols.

Supposedly, I'm getting use to the way it is now. Is it because during the drag I had realise how much a burden this relationship has become?
Whatever it is.. We're both freed from each other.
Love.. it's never gone.
For us, it took a rest, a break.
Time will come to reveal what exactly we want deep down in our hearts I guess.

Still loving him..

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[x]: The Confession :[x]


I love the warmth of your hug;
I love the feel of your kiss;
I love the sound of your heartbeat;
I love the grasp of your hands;
I love the voice when you say you love me;
I love the connection when you look into my eyes;
I love the night we glaze at the starry night;
I love the taste of the dark chocolates that you bought for me;

I Love You.. The Way You Were..


Rang him up while on my way back. There is really just NOTHING to talk about.. as usual. yups. He don't like to talk on phone.

Went to GYM with my classmates, Jacob, WeiHao, Eugene, Jieying and YouXiang(He was busy drawing. Came to see see only? =.=") after geography remedial.

After gym, met up with my prettaye mei mei(XiaoTing). Headed to Lot1 to walk walk. Ate LJS de Chicken Potato Salad!!! When's the last time I ate that? Hmmm..

Anyway, did get to buy papaya milk from one of the shops on my way back to school to meet her. Lot1 seriously LACK OF PAPAYA!!! Grrrr..
And!!! 7-11 DON'T sell that oat biscuit I WANT !!! Only at CHEERS' de counter there got. QI SI WO LE LA!!!! aghhhhh.

By the way.. I've already come up with a NEW WISHLIST!!! hiak hiak hiak!!! xD
I'll try to save up for those.. ^_^



Regarding relationship etc, I admit I really love him loads.
I admit I miss him. But well.. he don't need me now in his life.
Maybe.. perhaps after 5 years, we will be together again.
That's just another unknown in life.

Decided to edit m friendster profile soon. Preferrably later?
kees..

Bye~~ <33

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[x]: Sorry.. :[x]

This relationship is heading nowhere now. Everything seems so vague to me.
No longer clear of my stand in his heart though he said he does love n miss me.

No more waiting - he told me not to.
Thought I am stronger now.. but again.. tears fall..

I decided to try let go bit by bit. Without me.. my thinking.. my prob..
I believe he will be happier and more carefree.

Called him just now. Perhaps he was too tired after a long day school. We had nothing much to talk about.
If I can be that unreasonable.. can I ask how much I mean to him? Can he tell me that I am his priority?
Impossible cos he has his family, friends, classmates and game. I'm not the one here to interfere and cause so much disruption in his life.

I hope I feel alright after making such a decision. I admit that I'm sad but I think..
This day is just a matter of time that it will come by. Sooner or later.

If ever I wanted to wait for him to finish school and NS, I guess he would most probably be with another girl already. I don't wanna get myself so hurt knowing the fact that after a long and faithful wait, all I received was just ignorance or rejection.

He is a nice boyfriend afterall.
Like my pretty mei mei said, I might be holding on.. to the past Jeff and not the one Now.

I want him but..
He deserves better girl too.
I'm sure he knows who else treats him better than I do.

Last but not least, I admit I miss him loads.
Let time heal everything bahs.. ='(

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[x]: Life's Twist :[x]


ciggarettes are rich people stuff now.
How many sticks a day? Or.. how many box per week?? 7?

I HATE MY LIFE!
I hate it not because of outside family complications. I hate it because I am going through it from a not bad family to such a state..

What has gone wrong here?!

Dad was being conned 200 bucks for cigg. See?? This is what 'tan xiao pian yi' cause.
Smoke smoke smoke.. Does he have a limit for everything he does?

How much have he thought and considered for this family?
Fancy calling me when I wasn't at home at late nights, without even knowing the reason from mummy he started yellin over the phone?

Does he really think he FIT to do so?!
He who was out til so late..?
I appreciate his care for giving me a family. A not bad one at first.
But what has it become now?

-I remembered when he flared up just for the few bucks for cigg.
He started throwing things.. damaging it on purpose. Those bai she ping etc. Was he out of his mind?
I cried. I abhorred the sight of that. Mum said nothing. Sis and I were picking up the things that are still working, putting them back to where they were. Sis told me just put them back and stop crying.

-I remembered when he came back home so drunk. I was talking on phone or playing com and he was like.. Still don't study!
-.- Will he ever know I did WHEN HE WAS NOT AT HOME BUT DRINKING?!
He emptied my bag and started pouring some chemicals on it.
One of the file which was received from some chinese cluster competition was like damaged? ..
The word smerdged. My bag and books were soaked with chemicals..
It smelled so strong. I cried.

-I remembered when he actually injured someone with .. and was jailed a few months.
That was the first time I ever saw my Mum cried. I bet she was heartbroken and thus broke down.
Of course, to think back how much they spent on the lawyer's fee etc, I really kan bu guo qu! haish

-I remembered times when he used to give me extra allowance. But now?

-I remembered the days we went out together as a whole family to the beach or something like that. Those happy moments. The laughter.. They were all vague in my mind but I do recall bits.

-I remembered how 'sticky' I was towards him. Days back when I actually tagged along with him to catch fish.. into the woods for fruits(rambutans, durians, jackfruit) etc. I had the most enjoyable childhood.

I know he loves any one of us. But.. he just doesn't get it right.
Dad, I Love You.

Mushy things just won't come out of my mouth.
I know Mum n Dad care alot for us..
I really do.

One day, I hope I can be the one helping this family.. back to the days when everyone are so happy and .. no longer brooding over money matters.

Ppl out there may be poorer ad sufferin more than me. Hopefully, they will work hard to push open that door of a new phase in life bahs.

Going to bathe to meet girlfriend instead. Off to bathe~~~

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Just for a clarification..

My kor simply gave her money to buy things that is necessary?? This is what my kor told me. He's already working on a solution and well.. I've no strong objection since he claimed that he knows what he is doing and that he won't be so what in love. I really really xi wang he gets my point too - I just don't wish him to spend too much on someone he knows not long and then got tgt with.

I don't really hate her. Hope she understands that we have our stands too.

Anyway, SHE had a few left to buy her cosmetic herself.. but.. what's with the receipt I saw then?? Hmmm.. forget it.

TRUTH are just UGLY FACTS that NONE would want to REVEAL.
What they'll do is just COVER UP for the LIE.
-true enough? hahas

Can't totally push all blames on HER when it comes to family finance matter. It was DAD who is the ROOT CAUSE. out of job AGAIN??!! Can he an fen shou ji and hao hao work?

aghhhh!!!!!!! QI SI WO LE!!!!

ahhhhh~~~!! Don't say lerh.

[x]: Drink, drank.. but not DRUNK


Back to my own life. Went to drink with my friend. (unexpected?) I know HE dont like me to drink. I think HE would flare up? But.. I just.. Nvm.. explanation does nothing.
Drank white wine and half of the - quickfu*k
It's NICE!! Do try!! hahas.

The sky is so BIG and filled with numerous stars~~
It somehow reminded me of the day of my birthday. That night that HIM and I were together chatting and glazing at the stars at ECP. It was memorable.
Things happened that day keep running across my mind.
Another case was when I laid on his lap.. I recalled the weary me lying on his lap too. It was really comfortable and .. shuo bu chu de xingfu and wen nuan. hehes.

Whatever it was.. everything is just a past of what we had before.

Honestly, I was not a 100% sober girl after drinking that two glasses of white wine n half a cup of the QF. I don't normally drink ya? So.. well.. ahhahs..

BUT I'm definitely still clear in my mind. I'm more sober than drunk. I SWEAR.
I felt a lil dizzy though but was not too over.

Anyway, I just simply LIKE that QF and.. white wine does taste better than the red one =X ahahhas


K la.. Meeting my pretty later for homework.
I hope my brain is still workin!! xD


ja ne~

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[x]: Bro's GF :[x]


ahhh!!! My kor kor(real one) is getting on my nerves!!!

I 'see no down go' le!!! arghhh!

I don't care if she's MY fren. In fact, I don't really quite know her well.
Besides, I'm not that close to her. I don't know what type a person she is.

Maybe, she is really into my brother. BUT.. what if she's not?
What if it's only bcos my brother let her stay at our house for a period cos she claimed that she had a quarrel with her mum AGAIN and ran from house ANOTHER TIME?

Can you see how problematic she is?
I mean.. like what I've picked up from the conversation with my mummy(real one),
NO parents on earth scold the child for NOTHING!! I know there are some who really are unreasonable... demo!

How hard-hearted can her mum be? No one knows if she's speaking the truth.
To make others believe in you, you gotta show and prove that you're trustworthy isn't it?
But I doubt she did it.


Guess what?? Staying over at our house for I-dunno-will-be-how-long days..
Wouldn't she feel bad bout it?
She's bothering us family .. does she even know THAT?

I know I sound real nasty despite SHE being my friend too. But so WHAT?!
Everyone has his/her own limits!

一段刚上轨道的爱情，并不需要完全付出所有！-- 尤其是$$$!!!

Mummy saw kor passing $$ to HER.
She asked me.. kor supporting her ar?
I have no comments. I'm NOT going to say ANYTHING.

Seriously, she can jolly well head home when her mum's NOT at home to at least pack her things WITHOUT BUYING NEW ONES!

WHAT THE HELL when she gets to buy new stuffs like cosmetic??
NOT WITH HER OWN $$$!!!

We're all INDEBTED to our PARENTS since the day we came to this world.
Diapers, milk powder, clothing, shelter, etc etc. We 'chao chao'(smelly smelly) owe them more than a million!! It seems a large amount to be impossible .. but this is what amounted up to TIL THIS DAY we're ALIVE!!!

See my point here?
Unless you can take out an at least >1 mil on the spot and give it to your parents, you're forever NOT out of the DEBT.

She better make sure she's not after the good things that korkor did as a bf to a gf.
She better make sure that she really like him that they were tgt.

I know I ain't in any position to say much BUT *toot* ! She OUGHT to know her OWN LIMITS too.

I can be a nice and helpful friend. But when it comes to sensitive issues, I'm sorry..
You just gotta know your stand and MY stand. ESPECIALLY WHN IT COMES TO $$ and FAMILY matters~!~!

for that SHE.'J', you know who you are. I don't have any ideas whether you'll see this post not. I just want you o know that if ever you're that B***H that jus fancy stead with anyone for $$/shelter etc.. I'll NEVER EVER let you OFF so EASILY!! Try me.

One who seems less powerful is in fact the most superior and hidden one.
His/her ability and capability are never to be looked down on.

Bear this in MIND!!

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爱情的不公平。

我其实很自私，但若任性，结果只是失去你。。

在你眼里，我已不是唯一。。

好难受。。

却不想放手，因为始终还爱你。。我根本舍不得。。

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There was once a soldier who loved a princess.

One day, he took up the courage and confessed to the princess who did not seem to have any feelings towards him at that time.

Soldier: Would you be mine? I Love You..

Princess: Ermm.. I'll consider the love if you stand here at the palace gate for a hundred days without leaving at all to prove how much you love.

The soldier did what she told him to. He waited and waited.. Whether rain or shine, no matter how tired he was, he stood there awaiting her to come into his arms.

Hundred days and hundred days passed.. Slowly the princess started to fall in love with the soldier.

At the 999th day, the princess was so touched that she decided to tell the soldier that she wanted to be his the next day.

And so, when the sun rise up, the princess appear before the soldier...

When she was about to say..

The soldier turned and walked away..

Princess: *puzzled* Why are you turning away now? You've already waited for the 1000th day and I have fallen in love with you!

Soldier: My love for you had all been used up in this 1000th day of test.

（我的爱早就在这一千天的考验里，全都用完了。。）

Moral:

The wait won't be for long. Don't let the person who love you so dearly to use up all of his or her love on the long wait..

一个人不可能一辈子都在等待另外一个人。。

I hope everyone will cherish the ones around you. The Love will never come back when it's gone.

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[x]: My Beloved HER :[x]

I always envied HER relationship.
The way SHE and HER boyfriend play together madly whenever I see them.
The facts I learned that they had wonderful and sweet presents for each other.
The period they endured and pulled it through together.
The chemistry that held them close to one another for so long.

I always believed they would last..

How naive can one be to believe that love is perpetual and everlasting?

All we have to do is to believe in it. Isn't it?
If ever one is gonna live in doubts.. thinking of the impossibles, then there would really be nothing that is possible simply cos she/he won't even dare to try! right? ^.^

SHE blogged that it's over and SHE doesn't feel as hurt as before. Perhaps.. after incidents and incidents that happen, they'll all fade the feelings once so strong and firm.


Vir. cousin broke up with hers too already.
but I'm still holding on to mine.

I never wish the day when we have to part will ever arrive!
NEVER!!!

Being tired is simply because you didn't even wanna give a shot to understand more bout the root and cause.
Or maybe.. you knew so much and so well that it haunts you.
Whatever it is.. as long as they're glad and satisfied with the outcome.
I give HER my support and blessings! She's always my BELOVED!!! =D

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A Nice Treat For Wayne Yesterday !!

She decided to satisfy one of her cravings..
Had XiaoLincoln and TracyGIRLFRIEND to join er for a SUKI SUSHI dinner!! weeets~ We're darn full!! whahhahas..

Yum Yum!! What will e my NEXT UP?!

Anyway.. Anyone wanna buy me present? LOL
Let it be a YOUTH DAY prezzie hao ma? whahhhaas

Current Wishing List[Material Girl She Is!]
=Fresh Imp or Addidas JACKET
=SeaHorse Necklace and Silver Gun Necklace from Heeren's BLINK BLINK shop! (#05-27)
=Food Treat
=n more to come!! whahhaha xD

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Take Me For Whom I Portrayed To Be.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.

I'm the only witness
and the only person who can judge my life.

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