Friday, October 26, 2007
10/26/2007 08:04:00 AM Y
Post title : 妈咪
♥ You'll never know the real me.
妈咪,
我好想你 ='(
我知到你担心,
不高兴我一直在别人家住.
但在你担心, 生气之于,
有没有想过,
这样的我更快乐,更开心??
我很好.非常好
不用担心.
我有读书,放心.
AUNTIE 准备床和桌子给我.
不用和别人分.
这么多年了,
我还以为那是
我和姐姐的房间.
但我错了.
姐姐说那是属于她的房间
不是我们的.
父母有一间,哥哥有一间,
姐姐有一间, 那我呢?!
属于我自己的呢?
在哪里?
我知道家里不是很有钱,
买不起大房子.
但家,
根本没有一个真正属于我自己的地方
我也希望拥有一间自己的房间,
能自己打理,布置
可是我没有.
没有房间不用紧.
没有属于自己的地方不用紧.
但我不开心,不高兴,不快乐.
我不喜欢被比较.
我不喜欢你一直在我面前提起姐姐.
你有顾虑到我的感受吗?
我承认比较有时候是一种推动力.
但当你过分的比较时,
那是会有负面的影响的,你懂吗??
宁宁不懂事
但这次希望妈妈谅解．．
不要催我回家了可以吗？
对不起，谢谢你．
Labels: personal
Thursday, October 25, 2007
10/25/2007 09:48:00 AM Y
Post title : Too weak..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Once in a lifetime means there's no second chance..
So, I'll grab hold of everything that come by.
I wanna hold on tight to everything.
Yet when ugly truths hit me,
I cant handle them well.
Am I that naive?
To believe again and again
even when I've been hurt or disappointed many times?
I realised,
the old me..
the one who seems to be so strong..
GONE-
I can no longer withstand
can no longer hold back my tears
can no longer be clear..
of what lies ahead of me.
Perhaps,
when problems arise,
all I ever wanna do is to run away.
I cant control my tears no more.
They rolled down my cheeks so easily.
NOW.
I dont know what else to do to make myself stronger
To be able to control my emotions.
Yesterday, Hubby merely wanted me to speak up what was in my mind..
yet..
words just stuck in my throat.
I turned and told him..
but then, he interrupted.
He doubted.
He thought he is the one close to me
and so I should be able confide to him face to face.
yet..
I cant.
I'm sorry baby.
It is not cos u stand no impt place in my heart.
It's just that,
I cant express myself.
I dont know how to put into words.
And whenever I wanna say out,
I felt that..
it was just ME
who's thinking too much
Or being too naive.
I dont wanna control,
neither do I wanna be the one that hinders whatever you feel like doing
be it gaming or your 'toys'
I wanna see you smile
I wanna join you in any topics.
Even if I know nuts bout it.
But at the same time,
I hope you could try to listen to me too
And I know you did.
Thanks boy.
There are quarrels
but I'm sure we can pull it all thru
working hard for our relationship.
Will you too?? (:
Gotta go study lerhs.
Peeps, sometimes,
not all advices works.
stand in a different perspective.
Empathy, that's it. ^^
Labels: personal
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
10/24/2007 08:52:00 AM Y
Post title : 浪, 总有一天还是会平静下来的
♥ You'll never know the real me.
我承认亲情..
怎么都断不了.
就算是争吵,
也总有一天会和好.
这次,我不知道
这场巨浪要到何时才会平息..
我不喜欢吵架.
尤其是和我爱的人
不管是家人或爱人..
他们在我生命里的影响很大.
每个人都扮演着举足轻重的角色.
我不否认自己天真得可怜
不懂得珍惜,知足,报答
但至少,我从来没有打算放弃任何人.
我相信
伤痛,失望 等
无可避免.
但当它们来的时候
总把我狠狠地打败
是否,
会有那么一天,
它们变成一种推动力
让我更加坚强.
虽然说考试期间不想管太多
但不免会想起..
毕竟我不是个什么都不在乎的人啊.
咳~
也许,
浪, 总有一天还是会平静下来的..
Labels: personal
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
10/23/2007 10:10:00 PM Y
Post title : There Will Be An End..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I dont understand why are people so 'FANSCINATED' by homemade vids..
Is it bcos they NEVER dare or see one of their own??
Whatever it is..
Shoo shoo!
Wayne wont be affected anyway (:
To the person who tagged my blog previously with some advice..
Someone who tagged with the com under the same roof?
Well, no matter who you are..
I know it's disheartening for mummy to see both her daughters are in a strained relationship.
I never disregard jie jie.
I still call her by title. Not name.
It was her who said Sis no more.
NOT me.
I know I'm young.
I've more to experience..
But at least for now..
I suppose.. I'm a lil more mature to think.
To err is human.
To forgive is saint.
Everyone makes mistakes and NOTHING in this world is RIGHT all the time.
I know my sister cares for everyone in the family.
However, on the contrary, I hope she dont boss around too much either.
I remembered when I was in lower sec. Esp sec1.
Sis checked my phone if I'm not wrong.
I hope I am.
sigh*
Privacy means a lot to me.
Maybe, it is because I'm someone who keep certain things to myself
That I dont wish anyone to know some things bout me..
That's why I'm reacting this way.
Honestly, it's gd to have a sis.
There's good and memorable times.
I'll always recall the past when I once injured my ankle due to bicycle wheel..
and sis piggybacked be to the toilet, help me take stuff etc.
It was certainly a bliss.
This was even vivid when I sprained my ankle few weeks back.
There was once, sis brought me out to eat pizzahut.
It happened not long ago.. Just this year.
Due to the molest case.. I guess sis treat me cos she wants me to feel better?
I dont know.. but that's what I think (:
I love jie jie.
Seriously.
But when conflicts and whatsoever happens..
I guess things wont just settle so fast bahs.
I wont say I will never give in
But well, when gaps n distance appears..
It's kinda hard to mend everything back.
Perhaps, after some time,
things will eventually meet an end.
"Chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi"
^-^
For the time being,
just let it be bah (: Labels: personal
10/23/2007 10:58:00 AM Y
Post title : Tag reply
♥ You'll never know the real me.
This is MY REPLY to PIECE OF ADVICE:
First of all, I NEVER say my family dont care AT ALL for me (:
What makes you think I disregard them TOTALLY?
esp my MUM.
And when you say MY thinking is IMMATURE..
Think again.
You refering it to?
BGR? the so called "puppy love" of mine?? or the way I regard my Mum and family???
Oh please..for BGR matters..
One day, when you got married,
PLEASE JOLLY WELL REFLECT BACK AT THE BEGINNING OF THAT LOVE WITH YOUR WIFE/HUSBAND.
If knowing that one MIGHT NOT last,
and cos of the fear if whatever will come,
that one decided to regard it as 'PUPPY LOVE' that will END one day..
Never putting much in a relationship..
Will that even LAST in the first place??
I'm not being hurt ONCE or TWICE ONLY.
I know how it feels when dreams shatter..
When what you once believed in turns ugly..
when love hurts me, the encouragement and consolation I received from friends and FAMILY.
I know they're ALWAYS there for me..
Giving me support.
And I only mention my boy DOTES me in a more obvious way.
I DIDN'T say mummy DONT CARE AT ALL.
How many times must I REPEAT myself to INFER correctly?!
If you think you're an ALL-KNOW person who can give all the GOOD and MATURE thinking..
Go revise what's in your mind again.
My oh my..
honeymoon perioD? NO QUARRELS?
Did I ever say we're a PERFECT couple who are THAT LOVING??
Til the extend of NO QUARRELS NO CONFLICTS NO NOTHING?!
Each and every relationship has its own probs..
And it's NOT your business to POKE YOUR NOSE in.
So what if there's quarrels?
They are unavoidable. They exist in ALL relationships.
-just a matter of MORE or LESS.
Besides, does AGE matters??
How one thinks..
what one does..
If you consider OLDER = MATURE
You're in NO POSITION to give me ANY advice.
Does being OLDER means you went through MORE in life?
NO!
Different people experience different things.
And they of course, feel DIFFERENTLY.
The amount of happiness, agony, hurt, etc etc that one experiences
are in NO COMPARISON with the others.
Especially an ADULT and a TEENAGER.
Every adults can say they went through MORE.
But do they REALLY know everything?
NO!
They're using their OWN perceptive views to put it on a younger person.
Get me?
Or maybe cos you're one of those who are like that
so, I doubt you understand??
LOLs
I dont mind being hurt again.
In love or whatever relationship.
I admit recovery period are tormenting..
But whenever I think back upon how I eventually stood back on my feet and moved on..
I'm proud of myself.
I overcome SETBACKS..
Specifically LOVE.
Though, I might not know how to handle it EXTREMELY well..
I know.. I'll never stop loving..
To you,
I dont know what else to WAKE YOUR MIND too..
you're not any MORE mature than me ^-^
But anyway,
THANKS for taggin such a LONG advice..
For any queries,
Tag again (:
LOL
Labels: personal
10/23/2007 08:23:00 AM Y
Post title : 珍惜.
♥ You'll never know the real me.
生命里难能可贵的: 亲情和友情.
KINSHIP and FRIENDSHIP - the most precious and hard to come by thing in life
同时间..出现了一些问题.
Yet at the same time, they hit me.
可能..这一切的发生..
Perhaps, all this happenings
怪我自己太不懂得珍惜.
I'm the one to be blamed for not cherishing.
想想问题的根源,自己也难此其咎吧??
I reflect upon these probs, I guess I cant run away from the blame??
娜说的没错.
Na's right.
我没有用真心..
I didnt use my true heart..
是否只有在这种距离,我和她,和她才会快乐??
Is it only under such distance could we then be happy??
世界的美妙被一层层丑陋的事物遮盖.
Layers of UGLY stuff covered this amazing life.
我开始看不清．
My vision starts to be blurred.
虽然生气，怪她们不够了解我，
I admit I'm pissed and I blamed them for not knowing me well,
但往更深一层想．．
yet when I let my thoughts run deep..
我领悟到，
I realised,
这世界，
this world,
公不公平，对错与否，
No matter fair or unjust, right or wrong,
都不是人可以轻易掌握的，不是吗？？
They're all not easily controlled by man right??
生命里的 "假象" 与 "真相"..
The ILLUSIONS and TRUTHS in life..
还重要吗?
Are they still important?
哭也哭过了,
Tears shed,
再执挫与这些不愉快的事情也没有用,对吧?
It's useless to brood about these unhappiness anymore, isnt it?
每个人都一定会遇到种种的挫折与打击,
Everyone is bound to meet failures and blows,
我也不例外.
I'm No exception too.
经过这两件事的发生,
After all these that happened,
我决定好好珍惜,
I will learn to cherish more,
和每个人制造美丽的回忆.
creating beautiful memories with everyone.
至少,这么一来,我不会有任何遗憾.
At least, in this way, I wont feel any regrets
宁宁要做个快乐的自己!! =D
I wanna be a happy ME!!
Labels: personal
Sunday, October 21, 2007
10/21/2007 08:37:00 AM Y
Post title : Add on ^^
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Thi is just an add on (:
A sweet sweet BREAKFAST by HUBBYto calm me down ^-^
Love it! MMMuacks!S
Labels: personal
10/21/2007 07:04:00 AM Y
Post title : To HER
♥ You'll never know the real me.
This goes out to my SISTER :
FINE! then don't conclude YOURSELF when you didnt see or hear anything when you're NOT at home!
WHO says Mummy NEVER ask me to do house chores?!
Did Mummy KEEP saying how pretty or my prettiness could this and that?!
Fight with her colleague?!
I know it feels VERY bad when hearing them say that IN FRONT of your face
And did you SEE it when I'm doing the housechores?!
NO!
I admit I didnt really do much.
But that doesnt mean I DIDNT do AT ALL.
Please dont use 'EVERYTHING' when it is NOT true.
And do you REALLY think scoldings are often targeted on you ONLY?!
Who is being BLAMED when things are messed up?!
ME!
Are you REALLY CLEAN?!
NO!
If ever you can RECALL!
Who always leave the TV on?
Who always leave the leftovers outside?
Who took things out but never keep it back and just WENT OUT?
WHO?!
And WHO she blame when things are NOT done by me?!
And I bet you have read my previous posts,
PLEASE INFER CORRECTLY!
When are you 101% NOT in the picture and all my thinking are PLAIN SELFISHNESS?
I did say you EARN all these praisings etc can!
And can you PLEASE tell me WHO is the one who NEVER ask whether I WANT OR NOT
and just DECIDED on her own to move MY table into HER room?!
Did you spare a thought for me then?
Changing MY 'privacy' to such a SMALL cupboard.
That table you moved out has LIMITED drawers.
You already got the room, what else you want?!
Have you ever thought how it feels like when there's NO ROOM at all in your OWN house?!
We're not loaded.
Parents cant simply afford a bigger house..
this i know.
This is your reply to those messages you SENT!>
to who?
You know it BEST.
FIRST, though I've been SKIPPING lessons past few daySs,
I DID study ok!
If you NEVER see it..
DONT say ANYTHING!
NEXT, What makes you think I NEVER stuy at all when I'm with HIM?!
By reading my blog doesnt REALLY show EVERYTHING I did!
Who seriously post EVERY LIL DETAIL in blogs?!
What makes you THINK that he NEVER encourage me to study?!
I didnt go school nor back home..
Reason is simple.
REDUNDANT.
And it's all those THINKINGS of yours and mummy that keep assuming that I AINT studying that makes me wanna just GO OUT and throw all NAGS behind my mind.
Do you even know that..
ren hui sui shi jian er bian??
yin wai lai de yin su dao zhi bu yi yang de xiang fa, tai du, xing wei??
And OUTSIDE influence refers to tremor sadness anger etc that build up ??
Third, since your WORD means SO MUCH to mummy when it comes to DEFENDING me..
Dont say anything then.
Just say you dont know anything and that's TRUE.
You know NUTS bout me
I admit I didnt open up myself to family members.
And BF is my first 'jetty'.
"ren chu hai liu lang
bu guan zen yang dou shi hui lei de.
er dang ta lei de shi hou,
zui rang ta gan dao shu fu he an quan de di fang,
ta jiu hui gan dao fang song."
With my friends and BF,
they might not really know me in and out.
BUT at least, I rather turn to them than YOU or MUMMY n DADDY.
They might not give me the BEST advices or consoles,
but NOTHING will be as good as to talk to them than anyone else.
FOURTH, I never DONT care how mummy will feel.
I know she wont feel good,
to what i've done..
BUT i did thought of it.
It's just that I cant bring myself to explain to her.
This is MY prob.
Try dad n mum??
Like you??
How Dad reacted?
Do you think I care?
Since he thinks VIOLENCE etc is the BEST resort.
He's WRONG..
And regarding that..
I MYSELF will prove him wrong if it really happens.
DONT JUST CONCLUDE YOURSELF BY SIMPLY READING MY BLOG!
If simple words can express everything..
Why do ppl have a MOUTH?
Why is thr ppl saying:
"Words cant describe how I feel..."
etc.
You DON'T KNOW ME
so just keep your mouth CLOSE.
This is to EVERYONE:
If you think BLOG is the place you'll get to know the REAL me..
You're WRONG.
Blog is just somewhere I share BITS of my life.
NOT ALL!
If one can truly say how he or she feels to others..
And make them UNDERSTAND..
Why on earth are there MISUNDERSTANDINGS, QUARRELS etc?
Think.
I Bet I'm not the only one thinking this way (:
Labels: personal
10/21/2007 01:54:00 AM Y
Post title : Respect
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I..
wanna blog before I go to sleep tonight (:
It's 10min to 2am and I'm still awake.
Staying over again at Hubby's house.
If ever you wonder..
I'm one who yearns for TOTAL care and concern.
I NEED to be VALUED.
At home:
Sis claimed that the room belongs to HER
We're a family of FIVE yet living in a FOUR-room flat.
that means..
I cant have my VERY OWN room.
I wanted SO SO MUCH to just have a room to MYSELF.
I can decorate anything I like.
My style my taste
*dreaming*
But well..
*dream crashed*
Dreams are meant for sleeping and it wont come true less I move out and live on my own
which! is still a long way to go
HAHAS
I feel myself so inferior when SIS is beside me.
Ok, she worked for everything she wants.
She deserves the compliments.
but can those people think in other ppl' shoes?
Can they FCKING understand how it feels to be compared to one's..
cousin,
sibling,
parent's friend's children??
In addition, please WAKE UP TO YOUR SENSES!
Or can you people OPEN YOUR EYES TO SEE CLEARLY?!
Isnt it OBVIOUS?!
She is the ELDER one.
Just because she is SMALLER and SHORTER than ME doesnt mean she is MEI MEI.
GET THIS FACT RIGHT~!
bunch of idiots.
At Hubby's house:
Hubby respects me.
He dotes on me.
He let out one column of his cupboard for ME.
He leave half of the table at the bed front for ME.
He suggested to put a mirror in the cupboard for ME.
He cooks specially for ME.
(and himself of course =X)
He intended to get a curtain JUST because I said so.
(though I insisted on NOT to buy lols)
He covers the blanket for ME at late nights.
He Loves Me For Who I Am.
(Pig xD)
Hubby always give me a sense of IMPORTANCE
it means A LOT to me =)
seriously.
I know mummy do cares a lot for me too.
I know she loves me too.
Afterall, I'm her flesh and bones.
However, she neglected my feelings.
Not totally..
but when it concerns SO MUCH to me..
she is oblivious bout it.
I wanna be NOTICED.
Not a 100% attention Seeker..
Just need a lil bit more..
and that's it (:
Ok,
guess I gotta rest .
gonna study moost preferbly the WHOLE DAY tml.
muahahahahas.
Catch the NERD NERD wayne @ Lot1~!
=D
Labels: personal
10/20/2007 11:55:00 AM Y
Post title : 没有你的每一天 - Each Day Without You
♥ You'll never know the real me.
回家的路总是很远
The journey back home is always long
话少得很可怜
Too little topic
一个人的晚餐
A meal for ONE
都是孤单的滋味
It's all the taste of LONELINESS
看见身边重复上演
Repeating Flashbacks Around
属于我们的画面
scenes that belong to US
选择逃避的眼
The eyes that chose to avoid
怎么还是会流泪
But why does it still tear?
爱着你的每一天
Each day that I'm loving you
你就是我的世界
You're my world
那时候还以为
I once thought
我就爱这一遍
I'll just love once more this time
没有你的每一天
Each day without you
快乐离我好遥远
Happiness is drifting further away from me
心已随你走了
My heart follows when you're gone
还能用什么感觉
How else can I feel?
我舍不得睁开眼睛
I dont bear to open my eyes
害怕身边没有你
Fear that you're no longer around me
也许在梦境里
Perhaps in my dreamland
是我们最近的距离
is the closest place we will be
想念你温热的手心
I miss the warmth of your palm
冷风里把我握紧
Your hug in the chill
当冬天又来临
When winter comes again
这温度该怎么延续
How should this temperature continues
谢谢你曾经爱过我
I thank you for ONCE loving me
给我最美的经过
the most beautiful happenings you gave
但生命最爱被剥夺
But the loved one is being ripped away in my life
未来的路该怎么走
how should I walk the future..alone..?
Labels: lyrics
10/20/2007 11:36:00 AM Y
Post title : I wanted to... but...
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I wanted to write bout a sad story..
But Now..
I got no inspirations..
Is it because of HIM?
Now that I have him in my life..
I no longer fear of an end of a love
Or should i say..
He made me realise how much I mean to him.
I admit there are quarrels..
They dont last long..
But I hope they wont accumulate and EXPLODE one day >.<
I looked at him when he sleeps..
I feel time's gonna to pause for that short moment.
It was then I realise his existence means SO MUCH to me.
Without him.. everything seems dull..
But within this dullness lies bits of sweetness when he text me a simple
'I MISS U Darling'
I picture our future.
If everything goes on smoothly..
If we could last til we both die..
I believe,
we'll have a happy family.
Through thick and thins we'll always be together
Upholding this love.
If fate permits..
I wanna marry him..
I wanna let him know..
He's the Happiest man on Earth (:
Baby, you made my life so complete..
Labels: personal
Friday, October 19, 2007
10/19/2007 11:56:00 PM Y
Post title : Joke Of The Day
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Joke Of The Day :[x]
I'm lazy!So shall put EVERYTHING in simple form ^-^
Woke up early today.Mommy bought Crepe back (Ham and Cheese)Yummy! xD
Ate Famous Amos Cookies.Founded in 1975 ( read from the packaging while Hubby is PLAYING )
Played Hubby's phone SIMs game.Not fun.
Lols.
Did revisions for Math in the morning after watching ONE episode of '18 Jin Bu Jin'Rest awhile.Did for Chem..Waited for Crepe!Ate.. use com..
Hubby woke up..etc etchi turn to ue the com.PLAY PLAY PLAY! grrrr
waited for the KAMPONG ChickenAte dinner.Headed to town.
Met up with my girls.For a short while (but longer than the '15 minutes' pact between me n hubby hahas) i suppose?? =D
Pei Hubby go RP hotel find Francis n Goeff.Reached, but walked to FE instead of going up to find themTired of quarrelling with him over trivial matters.Sorry Hubby, like u said..i having 'UMS'Lol.Hope you understand.
skip
On the bus, bus uncle was really friendly n funny.He is a Malay.Crap quite a bit..
Finally got to sit down.Hubby looked at me and ask why I put fake eyelashes.say say say..he told me bottom of my eye there got eyelashes.
wipe halfway..me 'enlightened'o.0?!Hubby didnt know everyone has lower eyelashes!!!
JOKE OF THE DAY la!!
EIGHTEEN years of living ad he does nt know this?!OMG!
Hahas..
Nvm..I just cant deny that he S stupid! xP
Ok, Deadbeat.
bye~
Labels: personal
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
10/16/2007 10:36:00 PM Y
Post title : the hurtZ
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: 哭了 :[x]
to someone :
ever since the day you choose yr fate to be him .
that marks the end of our friendship .
there is any feelings left .
but just your decision .
i cannot force you to do anything .
neither do i want .
well . it's your freedom to do everything you like .
and i have no right to interfere .
actually , i do want to be friend with you again .
i had accepted you since the time i take initiatives to call you and chat .
how much i wished that we would be like last time so close tgt .
however, i dont think it's possible again .
the hurt is there .
peng you shi yong xin qu jiao wang de .
dan , wo que gan jue bu dao ni de zhen xin .
let us just remain like this ba .
i think it would be better .
cos when i facing you ,
i really cant find a word to talk to you .
i think you feel the same too ..
without a friend like me .
i dont think is any difference to you .
since you have so many friends ..:)
lastly , wish you good luck for everything ,
and take care (:
treasure what you have now .
sui ran shi qu de you yi yi jing bu neng hui tou le .
dan hai shi zhen xin zhu fu ni ba . (:
The above wass what SHE wrote on her blog.
and I'm SURE it was for ME.
Our friendship is getting from bad to worse ever since I go with dardar (her ex)
I don't know why.. everytime I see her.. I just..
I just cant bring myself to talk to her.. Why?!
Why is being with HIM a hindrance to our friendship??
Already this bond is so weak.. If I were to talk to her.. what can I say??
Talk bout relationships like we used to chat and exchange a lil about?
But HOW?! This is her EX-BOYFRIEND..
She'll definitely feel like I'm xuan yao-ing won't she??
I dont know.. just felt so.. hais..
Had a rather serious conflict once.. everyone involved were hurt deeply..
Honestly, I know that.. our friendship can never be mended back anymore..
No matter how hard one try, everything has changed and will never be back to the past..
After reading that, I cried..
Somehow, I do cherish our friendship ..
that explains why I wrote her a letter that day in school asking if we still are friends not?
I guess.. everything is no longer the same bahs.
Just dont understand what has it gonna do with him..
I appreciated the blessings.. And I hope she find hers one day..
想说：
虽然认识不久，但看得出你根本没有完完全全的相信过任何人。
也许我是错的。。 但至少和你相处过，这是你让我感觉到的。。
你习惯把真正的自己藏起来，是害怕受伤吗？
我看起来的确像有很多朋友。。但说穿了，真的了解我的。。
一个都没有
没错，朋友是要用心去交的。
但人与人之间多多少少会有点距离不是吗？我会有那么多朋友，是因为我肯原谅，真的原谅她们。。
若这友情就到此画上句点，我也只好微笑着接受。
Here，我真诚的祝福你。。会拥有美好的未来。。(:
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10/16/2007 08:32:00 AM Y
Post title : Be myself
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Be Myself :[x]
Browsed through Friendster just now..
yupps.. didnt go school AGAIN.
I swear I really wanted to hao hao study.. but not in school >.< =P Anyway, I've always admired this girl in friendster.. She's pretty and has a good figure.. kekes.. Well, i know it's not right to post her photo without her consent but.. since i'm not writing any bad stuff bout her.. I hope she doesnt mind?? hee..
Pretty right!? Or maybe my taste different as you peeps..
Hahas.
But seriously, if i'm a guy and this girl appears before me..
I'll sure drool i suppose..
hhahaas
Sometimes, i wonder how great it'll be if i got ..
a pretty face..
a hot figure..
a clever brain..
a super ultra gd personality..
a rich family..(so I can go shopping like BF) =p
etc etc
I know..
some can be achieved.. like..
going on a diet to slim down..
do breast enhancement like Jolin Tsai *eeeks*
(which I dont think it's cheap?)
study like a bookworm to gain lots and lots of knowledge..
(which wil make my brain explode instead)
Constantly review and reflect upon my ownself and do 'corrections'.. work super hard and earn lotsa money..
(i think I'll end up working for money.. slave i mean? =S)
Hais.. nothing is NATURALLY BORN in me..
lols..
Anyway,
I still love myself but I admit I hate seeing myself at times.
muahahhas
You see pretty faces and figures..
wont you hope so that you have it too so everyone's eyes will be on YOU?!
Maybe not for you.. or her..
but I do! xD
It's kinda impossible for the moment..
or maybe.. forever..
hahas
I dont like to go on diet..
I still eat if I really feel like to.
Came across this book which state a few advantages for being overweight
(I'm NOT over.. just found it interesting ^-^ )
I cant remember all..
But this is roughly what it is..
reduce sexual threats..
lesser expectations from others..
no one bothers a big person..
a threat to others so no one will bully you..
etc
it's not a bad thing ya?
hahas..
well well well..
I cant totally say everything is true for some overweight or should i say CHUBBY instead..
are pretty??
I got a friend.. Miya..
I like her hair.. and she looks cute (:
she's not 'fat' but find her chubby..
yesterday went Marina square..
saw a girl who's also kinda chubby.. yet ..
cute.
Seen one classmate who actually slimmed down A LOT.
*shall not mention her name*
She worked really hard I guess..
went joggin.. eat lesser..
My sis is another case too..
pretty and SLIM now..
I dig think of slimming down..
BUT.. I'm not persistent enough. hahas
Seriously, if I need to survive totally on my face and figure..
I rather disappear..
or.. maybe those uglier than me ones should go first?
Not trying to be mean or what..
this is a fact.
I wont deny that there're hundreds and thousands who are much much MUCH more prettier than me...
But there are those who are a lil not so nice than me right?
kekes.
Many guys like 'mei mei'(babes)
not small girl ar..
Just like most girls wish for a hunk.
I suppose..
Whatever it is..
when it comes to lve..
feelings matter most isnt it?
^^v
Anyway, have been a lil attitude towards hubby lately..
either cos I'm tired or I dont know..
just easily pissed off
hais.
Just wanna say..
I'm sorry DarDar.
I'm working on it..
Give me some time..
ok.. shall blog some daily stuff soon.
lazy to load those photos hahas..
tata`
Labels: personal
Saturday, October 13, 2007
10/13/2007 08:33:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: 其实 :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: 其实 :[x]
其实谁都不了解..
女孩真正在想什么.
或也许说, 是女孩不爱完全把自己的想法表达出来吧?
不管是身边的姐妹门, 班上的同学, 周围的朋友和'知己', 就连天天看到的家人都不了解..
曾经我以为有个漂亮的姐姐还不错...
就算朋友问起是否有兄弟姐妹, 我都会骄傲的说:
"我有一个很漂亮的姐姐! (:"
但现在, 当和妈咪和姐姐一起出门时,
每个人的目光都不由自主的投射在姐姐身上..
而好多一直跟妈咪说:
"哇~ 你女儿很美咧"
妈咪看得出很高兴吧?
毕竟若换成是我的孩子被这么夸奖, 我也一定会很开心.
但重点是他们根本就像是忽略了我的存在吗! =(
有好几次, 妈咪都会提到姐姐.
提到她的美, 身材等.
我好厌恶..
妈咪是否可以体会一下我的心情呢?
姐姐不是她唯一的女儿..!
昨天, 姐姐又回来了.
她叫我把房间收拾一下..我知道很乱, 但她的语气听起来很不好啊!
我又不是不想收拾, 只是想考完试后再一次过通通打扫一番吗!!
妈咪让我感觉家不需要我..
不管妈妈多担心我在外太迟都还没回家,
也无法让我多体会到多一点存在感
...
出门后, 眼泪不停地滑落..
那一刻, 我真的好想..
不要回家..
I'm pretty ok the past few days.. had much fun n laughter with my girls..
Plain lazy to post any photos we took here..
anyway, BOYFRIEND got post la.. so link hers if u wanna see!! =P
okok.. that's all.. bye~~
Labels: personal
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
10/09/2007 12:11:00 AM Y
Post title : nil
♥ You'll never know the real me.
爱来的时候，谁也阻挡不了。
也许，是自己根本就不想抵抗这爱的魔力吧？
也许，想让伤心再来一遍，给爱多一次机会。
我不晓得我和他的爱能否冲破千万个考验，
实现永远的诺言。。
但我相信我会用真诚对待这份情感。
若可以的话，我愿意包容所有的过错。
因为爱，所以会尽量去提升自己来达到对方的标准。
因为爱，所以会尽量去把自己表现得最好。
可能在别人的眼里，这样的做法有些多余。
毕竟，爱一个人就是要‘接受’，而不是一味地去‘改变’自己或对方。
但对我而言，若这么做能让彼此的感情更佳的话，我想改一改也无伤大雅吧？(:
等待。。一段恋情的到来。。因为它附带了一样很珍贵的东西——幸福。
虽然一次又一次，它来到我身边又离开， 我还是不会放弃。
我期待有它和他的未来^-^
Labels: love personal
Sunday, October 07, 2007
10/07/2007 09:43:00 AM Y
Post title : Fri and Sat..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Friday 5th Oct :[x]Met up with Hubby's sis and headed down to find Hubby and his parents..
When we reached, they're not there yet..
so accompanied sis to FOX cos she wanna buy a jean..
Had a free key chain..
and we chose the
UGLIEST one~~! xD
Finally met up with them at the basement..
Bought some stuff..
blah blah blah..
lols..
lazy to type in detail kee
After eating and me POO-ing..
Hubby, his sis and I went walk walk cos his parents buying things at NTUC/COld Storage.. whatever it is lahs..
hahas
Hubby suggested Kiddy Palace..
Initially was to go in see Peki..
But then.. they eyed on MONOPOLY.. hahas..
Sis and Hubby shared cost and bought the one with ELECTRONIC BANKING!!
Is that what attracted them most?? lols.
After paying up, they continued.. into TOY'R'US..
Hubby took one TIGGER for me!!!!!
ouhhhh.. so sweet~~
He wanted to add that into my already have Pooh and Eeyore..
hahas Thanks dear dear!!
MMuacks <33 style="font-weight: bold;">Photo gallery of the day..
I'm the one with the least Properties (: hahas
Yea.. I'm the PLANE~~
Jail =)
See my smiley??
In jail..
You still receive money if other player land onto your property
But .. it is guaranteed plus chop that I won't land on other ppl's which mean.. I don't need to pay them!! xP
Buying Apartment to rise the cost when ppl land onto your property..
Do I have to explain further?
hahas..
I bet most ppl played monopoly right?? ^-^
OH..someone landed on Hubby's..
See his expression??
Most likely..
he was looking at how much tt player has to pay hahas
Ok.. start to transfer money..lols
continue continue..
Yups.. this is the packaging of the game (:
I mean PART of it.. the one with MOST ATTRACTION =D
Tigger and Monopoly (:
Yan yan.. Water gun.. Glow In the dark butterflies..
I think hubby seriously enjoyed playing with that elec banking calculator sial..
hahas
this is the UGLY FREAK!!!!
hahas
I'm too POOr.. kept paying and paying and paying..
Ended up.. I was being pitied on..
And given FREE.. saw the three properties?
x( hahas
Well.. i didnt really land onto the GO TO JAIL box..
But I got the card shown below for think two to three times sial..
FIsh!
Dinner time!!!
Hubby likes to shape the rice into oval round or 'fan tuan shape'
And so.. while he was in the toilet.. and shaped a heart !!
hahas
Two i mean (:
ehh.. focus is the HEART-shaped RICE ar..
xD
[X]: Saturday 06 Oct :[X]First..
HAPPY ONE MONTH!!!!!!!Hahas..
Yeps.. after "
SO LONG".. we finally gone through our ONE MONTH!! (:
hehes..
Went fishing with Hubby.. his papa and Mommy..
Penjuru..
a not say ulu but not say err.. whatever..
Lols.. some construction or factory or I don't know what's that going on..
Who cares?
It doesnt affect us..
When we arrived there were already two ppl fishing thr..
Set up everything and started fishing..
It was not til before night time that hubby caught a
STINGRAY with his Lightning rod!!!!!
wooooolallalallalallas~~~~
First time ever i see a Stingray being caught up sial!!!!
OMG OMG~!!!!
Quite a short while later.. Hubby reeled back a Crabbie!!
Lols...
Cute sial.. see how papa tried to catch hold of it when it was so 'ready' to '
giap giap'
lols..
Photo Gallery of the day..Walked round looking for nice nice seashells and stones..
While searching.. I recalled that I once found a stone that somehow resembled but not exactly a heart..
And so.. inside me.. i was hoping that I find one here..
and guess what??
I saw it!!!! xD
This is the gift from heaven for OUr one month anni ^-^
hehes
HUbby squarting beside the Stingray he caught (:
Proudly present ..
The STINGRAY man! hahahs
See how papa handles the Crabbie??
Hahas.. damn cute sial..
Written by Hubby..
While waiting for the Cab..
Know why I'm sad?!
Because HUbby never kiss me!!!!!! x(
hahas.. after he kiss me..
My smile is back (:
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