Tuesday, July 24, 2007
7/24/2007 06:41:00 PM Y
Post title : Phobia
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Phobia :[x]
The terrifying incident that happened last night put me into a state of fear.
Reluctantly, I went to school for lessons this morning. Mother gave me the approval to not attend afternoon supplementary before she left for work.
Before I left the house for school, I prepared a penknife on my hand.
When I headed down the staircase, this fear just gushed up. I was petrified by that night, I confessed.
I have fear for the staircase now. Ridiculous?
Had lessons. Did cried in school when relating the incident to Boyfriend, Eefennie, and MeiMei, XiaoTing.
The red marks are still there, not as red as yesterday night though.
Quite a big bruise on my arm still. When will it recover? =(
By the way, I noticed a small blue black on my chest too. That means.. it isn't just simply red marks but also slight bruises.
Can you imagine how hard he grabbed me? D'=
Met up with my sister at Lot1 today. She messaged me during lessons asking where I was and what time I will be dismissed. She wanted to eat PIZZA. Which also means she has the intention to treat me!!
Honestly, I miss her loads since she is not at home for about 2 weeks. No doubt I can have the whole bed to myself but still, this house seems cold.
Had a heavy Lunch at PizzaHut.
1. Beef Lasagne
2. Hut's Chef salad with calamari ring
3. Mushroom Soup
4. Pizza (The new pizza with cheese one)
We were damn full after eating!! =D
Went to shop for some cosmetics with JieJie. After which, we headed home.
On our way back, I kept looking back and around. Perhaps, I am looking out for that familiar build.
Even during shopping, I have the fear if someone were to be behind me.
I am afraid that history will repeat itself.
I thought I am strong to overcome this fear. But I'm wrong. Utterly wrong.
That smile never disappears in my life, it is just that that guy really made me feel so hurt.
Looking around, fearing this and that.
It is terrible.
Til now, whenever I close my eyes, I am still able to picture that scene. That petrifying night; That violent and perverted guy.
This world set me wondering..
Why is this world so dark??
Where is the light and security?
After decades and centuries, why hadn't human nature of evil change for the better?
How is this world gonna be like?
Who is gonna take care of those hurt ones? Or perhaps.. those criminals ?
When is evil going to cease.
What on earth is this world made of?
The soul that was badly hurt.
Til time pass, do you think this lil one can heal her wound fast enough?
This time round, she faces a different kind of wound.. Not relations or love..
This time.. it is both physically and mentally..
Something.. she thought.. would never happen to her.. but it did..Unexpectedly..
这小小的心灵受了伤。。
脆弱的她，只渴望他的拥抱与温暖。。
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