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Sunday, July 08, 2007

7/08/2007 02:14:00 PM Y

Post title : [x]: Life's Twist :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.

[x]: Life's Twist :[x]


ciggarettes are rich people stuff now.
How many sticks a day? Or.. how many box per week?? 7?

I HATE MY LIFE!
I hate it not because of outside family complications. I hate it because I am going through it from a not bad family to such a state..

What has gone wrong here?!

Dad was being conned 200 bucks for cigg. See?? This is what 'tan xiao pian yi' cause.
Smoke smoke smoke.. Does he have a limit for everything he does?

How much have he thought and considered for this family?
Fancy calling me when I wasn't at home at late nights, without even knowing the reason from mummy he started yellin over the phone?

Does he really think he FIT to do so?!
He who was out til so late..?
I appreciate his care for giving me a family. A not bad one at first.
But what has it become now?

-I remembered when he flared up just for the few bucks for cigg.
He started throwing things.. damaging it on purpose. Those bai she ping etc. Was he out of his mind?
I cried. I abhorred the sight of that. Mum said nothing. Sis and I were picking up the things that are still working, putting them back to where they were. Sis told me just put them back and stop crying.

-I remembered when he came back home so drunk. I was talking on phone or playing com and he was like.. Still don't study!
-.- Will he ever know I did WHEN HE WAS NOT AT HOME BUT DRINKING?!
He emptied my bag and started pouring some chemicals on it.
One of the file which was received from some chinese cluster competition was like damaged? ..
The word smerdged. My bag and books were soaked with chemicals..
It smelled so strong. I cried.

-I remembered when he actually injured someone with .. and was jailed a few months.
That was the first time I ever saw my Mum cried. I bet she was heartbroken and thus broke down.
Of course, to think back how much they spent on the lawyer's fee etc, I really kan bu guo qu! haish

-I remembered times when he used to give me extra allowance. But now?

-I remembered the days we went out together as a whole family to the beach or something like that. Those happy moments. The laughter.. They were all vague in my mind but I do recall bits.

-I remembered how 'sticky' I was towards him. Days back when I actually tagged along with him to catch fish.. into the woods for fruits(rambutans, durians, jackfruit) etc. I had the most enjoyable childhood.

I know he loves any one of us. But.. he just doesn't get it right.
Dad, I Love You.

Mushy things just won't come out of my mouth.
I know Mum n Dad care alot for us..
I really do.

One day, I hope I can be the one helping this family.. back to the days when everyone are so happy and .. no longer brooding over money matters.

Ppl out there may be poorer ad sufferin more than me. Hopefully, they will work hard to push open that door of a new phase in life bahs.

Going to bathe to meet girlfriend instead. Off to bathe~~~

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