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Sunday, July 15, 2007

7/15/2007 10:36:00 AM Y

Post title : [x]: Tearing Apart.. I'm bleeding :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.

[x]: Tearing Apart.. I'm bleeding :[x]

I thought I can forgo this relationship;

I thought I will be alright;

I thought I can live on my on;

I thought I will not miss him;

I thought I can end it happily;

I thought I will not cry again;


But things just happened to be the opposite.
He was supposed to meet me. I mean we agreed to meet. But after seeing him with another classmate de photo, guess what?

Image of him with other girls just run wild in my mind. I pictured him being able to smile so genuinely with friends than me.
Perhaps.. I’m just thinking too much. But.. isn’t it true?
He is better off without me and our problems.
Or maybe .. which is no longer important.. that I’m just another typical ‘unreasonable’ and ‘sensitive’ girl who thinks a lot.


Boy, no matter how much I want or need you, you just never seem to realize.
These days are torturing me deep down. Trying to act a strong front and yet my heart is bleeding. Will you ever know?


I said umpteen times of ‘takecare’ etc that simply ended the conversation with you online. Yet again and again I tried to find a topic or question that will keep it going. What am I doing?

I never wanted to stop any conversations with you. But you will never know how I feel. Why..?


I felt so emotional. About to type things on how exactly I feel. But then, I hesitated.

You won’t be happy this way. You’ll only feel worse. I ‘laughed’ in msn. I tried not to let you think I’m not ok. I tried to the happy and cheerful me.

Who else will know that I’m crying here? Who else will know that my heart is bleeding?


Knowing that he will be coming, I bathed and decided to fetch him from the station. However.. haish. I just don’t feel as if he really wanted to come ON HIS OWN ACCORD that much. He said he’ll do anything just to make me smile. But will I?

I’ll be so happy to see him.. yet how happy can I be compared to him wanting to come himself and not because of me?!


Guys are insensitive. Or maybe, cos he no longer have to think of me. He doesn’t seem to know.. that I just wanna see him so much.

My heart is tearing apart when he said that I’ll find a better guy or things that he thought would make me feel happier than to be with him.

He wanted me to smile. A MUST. But.. how am I suppose to? Tears are falling.. trying to act that I’m alright…how long can I take it?


说了不要掉眼泪,但还是做不到..

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