Sunday, October 21, 2007
10/21/2007 07:04:00 AM Y
Post title : To HER
♥ You'll never know the real me.
This goes out to my SISTER :
FINE! then don't conclude YOURSELF when you didnt see or hear anything when you're NOT at home!
WHO says Mummy NEVER ask me to do house chores?!
Did Mummy KEEP saying how pretty or my prettiness could this and that?!
Fight with her colleague?!
I know it feels VERY bad when hearing them say that IN FRONT of your face
And did you SEE it when I'm doing the housechores?!
NO!
I admit I didnt really do much.
But that doesnt mean I DIDNT do AT ALL.
Please dont use 'EVERYTHING' when it is NOT true.
And do you REALLY think scoldings are often targeted on you ONLY?!
Who is being BLAMED when things are messed up?!
ME!
Are you REALLY CLEAN?!
NO!
If ever you can RECALL!
Who always leave the TV on?
Who always leave the leftovers outside?
Who took things out but never keep it back and just WENT OUT?
WHO?!
And WHO she blame when things are NOT done by me?!
And I bet you have read my previous posts,
PLEASE INFER CORRECTLY!
When are you 101% NOT in the picture and all my thinking are PLAIN SELFISHNESS?
I did say you EARN all these praisings etc can!
And can you PLEASE tell me WHO is the one who NEVER ask whether I WANT OR NOT
and just DECIDED on her own to move MY table into HER room?!
Did you spare a thought for me then?
Changing MY 'privacy' to such a SMALL cupboard.
That table you moved out has LIMITED drawers.
You already got the room, what else you want?!
Have you ever thought how it feels like when there's NO ROOM at all in your OWN house?!
We're not loaded.
Parents cant simply afford a bigger house..
this i know.
This is your reply to those messages you SENT!>
to who?
You know it BEST.
FIRST, though I've been SKIPPING lessons past few daySs,
I DID study ok!
If you NEVER see it..
DONT say ANYTHING!
NEXT, What makes you think I NEVER stuy at all when I'm with HIM?!
By reading my blog doesnt REALLY show EVERYTHING I did!
Who seriously post EVERY LIL DETAIL in blogs?!
What makes you THINK that he NEVER encourage me to study?!
I didnt go school nor back home..
Reason is simple.
REDUNDANT.
And it's all those THINKINGS of yours and mummy that keep assuming that I AINT studying that makes me wanna just GO OUT and throw all NAGS behind my mind.
Do you even know that..
ren hui sui shi jian er bian??
yin wai lai de yin su dao zhi bu yi yang de xiang fa, tai du, xing wei??
And OUTSIDE influence refers to tremor sadness anger etc that build up ??
Third, since your WORD means SO MUCH to mummy when it comes to DEFENDING me..
Dont say anything then.
Just say you dont know anything and that's TRUE.
You know NUTS bout me
I admit I didnt open up myself to family members.
And BF is my first 'jetty'.
"ren chu hai liu lang
bu guan zen yang dou shi hui lei de.
er dang ta lei de shi hou,
zui rang ta gan dao shu fu he an quan de di fang,
ta jiu hui gan dao fang song."
With my friends and BF,
they might not really know me in and out.
BUT at least, I rather turn to them than YOU or MUMMY n DADDY.
They might not give me the BEST advices or consoles,
but NOTHING will be as good as to talk to them than anyone else.
FOURTH, I never DONT care how mummy will feel.
I know she wont feel good,
to what i've done..
BUT i did thought of it.
It's just that I cant bring myself to explain to her.
This is MY prob.
Try dad n mum??
Like you??
How Dad reacted?
Do you think I care?
Since he thinks VIOLENCE etc is the BEST resort.
He's WRONG..
And regarding that..
I MYSELF will prove him wrong if it really happens.
DONT JUST CONCLUDE YOURSELF BY SIMPLY READING MY BLOG!
If simple words can express everything..
Why do ppl have a MOUTH?
Why is thr ppl saying:
"Words cant describe how I feel..."
etc.
You DON'T KNOW ME
so just keep your mouth CLOSE.
This is to EVERYONE:
If you think BLOG is the place you'll get to know the REAL me..
You're WRONG.
Blog is just somewhere I share BITS of my life.
NOT ALL!
If one can truly say how he or she feels to others..
And make them UNDERSTAND..
Why on earth are there MISUNDERSTANDINGS, QUARRELS etc?
Think.
I Bet I'm not the only one thinking this way (:
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