Monday, September 03, 2007
9/03/2007 07:02:00 AM Y
Post title : 诚 实 的 话 语
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: 诚 实 的 话 语 :[x]
拥 抱 时 的 温 暖
亲 吻 时 的 甜 蜜
说 话 时 的 温 柔
就 是 你 ， 让 我 遇 见 时
情 不 自 禁 ， 无 可 自 拔
你 看 着 我 的 眼 睛
深 情 地 说 你 爱 我
时 间 仿 佛 都 停 止 了
世 界 好 像 只 剩 你 和 我
在 这 一 刹 那
我 忘 了 伤 痛 ， 忘 了 怨 恨
轻 轻 地 感 觉 你 给 的 爱
不 再 害 怕 ， 不 再 孤 单
肩 并 着 肩 ， 我 们 互 相 依 靠
抬 头 仰 望 ， 天 空 如 此 蔚 蓝
未 来 是 否 美 丽 ， 我 们 都 不 知 道
只 知 道 拥 有 的 现 在 ， 最 幸 福 最 快 乐
It feels good to be missed by YOU! =)
He turned and walk away.
Wayne was left behind, tearing.
She supposed, she was rejected..
Labels: love
Sunday, June 17, 2007
6/17/2007 11:58:00 AM Y
Post title : 10 Turnoffs That Make Good Guys Wave Goodbye
♥ You'll never know the real me.
10 Turnoffs That Make Good Guys Wave GoodbyeBy Jeff Cohen Special to Yahoo! Personals Updated: Jun 16, 2007You're sitting across from a great guy you met on Yahoo! Personals. You can't remember the last time a first date went so well. You're attracted to the guy. He has all the qualities you're looking for in a mate. He would even get your mom's approval.
The date ends and you actually have butterflies. Not only does this guy have second and third date potential, but you can smell a relationship. Unfortunately, a week passes and the cold reality sinks in that this great guy has no intention of ever seeing you again.Where did you go wrong?
How could you have misunderstood what you thought was great chemistry? Maybe it's time you learned the top 10 turnoffs that make good guys wave goodbye. If any of these fictional female daters sound like you, it's time for a first-date makeover.
1)Misleading Maggie:
Her profile says no kids, athletic and raking in the big bucks. The first date reveals two young kids, an extended waistline and unemployment checks.
Nothing says trust issues for a guy more than lies from the get-go
Nothing says trust issues for a guy more than lies from the get-go.
2)Insecure Ilene:
She reads into every comment a guy makes. She wants to know right away if date can be tomorrow. She asks you to call the minute you get home. This clingy nature screams of a potential needy girlfriend lacking independence. 3)Third-Degree Donna:
The cross-examination begins before the menus arrive. The questions are coming fast and furious, and the guy begins to feel like the defendant on the stand in a criminal trial. If a guy feels stuck under the interrogation lights, he'll run for the hills.4)Tardy Tina:
She arrives late, she no-shows, she changes plans last-minute, she loses his number, she flat-out just doesn't respect a guy's time. Fashionably late is one thing; keeping a guy waiting 30 minutes or no-showing is unacceptable.
5)High-Maintenance Hilda:"Thanks for taking me to this nice restaurant, but couldn't you get a table by the window?"
The feeling that nothing is ever good enough makes a guy quit trying to impress
The feeling that nothing is ever good enough makes a guy quit trying to impress. A simple thank you for a nice dinner is a better way to go.
6)Chatterbox Charlene: The conversation doesn't have to be 50 percent talking and 50 percent listening, but if she does all the talking it feels more like a seminar than a date. Charlene's opposite cousin, Pulling Teeth Patricia, is equally unsettling, making the guy do all the work.
7)Still-Hurting Sally:
First dates are notorious for spilling the beans on what went wrong with prior relationships. Sharing an amusing anecdote is good; making it clear you're not over your ex-boyfriend is a definite no-no.
8)Game Player Gina:"Maybe I'll kiss you goodnight, maybe I won't."
Good guys like to know where they stand
Good guys like to know where they stand. They leave the game-playing for the sports field. There's nothing wrong with flirting, but just know when it crosses over into deception and confusion.
9)Conceited Colleen: "Any guy would be lucky to have me." Guess what, the great guy across the table is also a real catch. Stop assuming every guy doesn't deserve you, and then you'll be on your way to actually landing a good one.
10)Matrimony Maureen: He dips his egg roll in duck sauce when all of a sudden she spills the beans on what they should name their kids. Intense relationships can be exciting for a good guy, but walking down the aisle before you walk each other home for the first time is a turn-off.
Labels: love
Thursday, April 19, 2007
4/19/2007 10:10:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Thursday's Poem :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Thursday's Poem :[x]
看着照片 想着从前 留着眼泪 等待明天
一天一天的过 有些无奈有些寂寞
我对着电脑发呆 眼前的功课还未完成
想你想你 怎么也堆不掉有你的画面
怀疑、害怕、担心 负面的影响 杂乱的心情
天空只剩灰暗
我的疑虑，你会解开
我的担心，你会明白
我的害怕，你会肯定
你说的：“I Love You and that’s a fact. And I will do this forever..”
宝贝，只要你一句话，一个拥抱，一个吻，我就安心。
Exam’s approaching and I simply can’t get you off my mind. I’m going to study but not hard cos I don’t get everything into my mind. The problem doesn’t lies on you. It’s just that I’m slacking too much. Hahas. Like I’ve said, I’m never ready! But anyway, still have to study ya? Hahas
Will be dismissing at abt 4 tml cos of Math extra lesson. Sort of a make-up cos we missed several math lesson and Mr. Ngoh seriously needa do some revisions with us, I suppose? Kekes
Imma tired. Nites~ (:
Labels: love, personal
Monday, April 16, 2007
4/16/2007 08:23:00 PM Y
Post title : Song lyric: On & On (edited)
♥ You'll never know the real me.
A song that was being edited by me for you.
Original song “ On and On” by DBSK(Korean band)
你有过这样的爱吗 只渴望 等待 爱着一个人
就像电影般的爱情
有许多人因等待而疲惫 说着*真实的爱情并不存在*
但那是骗人的吧
He’s like the wind that comes by
我也拥有着 总是思念的爱情
*等待已久 思念着某个人 在我身边的他
my love for you goes on and on
就像竖立的大树般 在你身边
不管多久 我都要成为那树影
我的爱情是goes on and on and on
就算不说爱你这句话 只要能传达给他
没有关系 他仍是可以感受到的
似乎无法用言语来解释 就像是灵魂的对话吧
2 become One 是人生最大的理由吧
He’s like the sunrise in my life
每天的开始都让人期待 只要有他在
**等待已久 思念着某个人 在我身边的他
my love for you goes on and on
就如一篇小说 成为你人生中美丽的灰姑娘
将感动献给你
我的爱情是goes on and on and on
我们的爱情 希望永不变
我会祈祷着 希望到永远
Baby, 就让我们眼前遇到的困难与悲伤
跟着灰暗一同消失
*等待已久 思念着某个人 在我身边的他
my love for you goes on and on
就像竖立的大树般 在你身边
不管多久 我都要成为那树影
我的爱情是goes on and on and on
**等待已久 思念着某个人 在我身边的他
my love for you goes on and on
就如一篇小说 成为你人生中美丽的灰姑娘
将感动献给你
我的爱情是goes on and on and onLabels: love, lyrics
Sunday, April 15, 2007
4/15/2007 04:53:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Tears 泪水 :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Tears 泪水 :[x]
暗淡的房间，鸦雀无声，男孩和女孩四目交接。
许久，女孩的眼泪流下脸颊，望着男孩的眼睛，
女孩顿时不知所措，心里乱七八糟的，脑袋也好像浮现好多好多有他的画面。
是因为太想念他吗？
嗨~ 好乱好乱。。
闭上眼，感觉男孩抚摸女孩头发时的温柔。
女孩轻轻的摸摸男孩的脸，泪水也快支持不住了。
她张开眼，再次看看男孩，只见男孩红了眼睛，眼角也含着泪水。
当时的他在想什么呢？
女孩暖暖地躺在他的胸前，两人竟禁不住哭了。
他们的吻是多么的虚幻，仿佛全世界都在看着他们，时间也为了他们而冻结了。
他们所想的大概围绕在对彼此的思念吧。
什么也不需要说，只要躺在彼此的怀里，就心满意足了。
女孩和男孩会永远守护着对方，直到老去为止吗？
如果可以的话。。
老天，
是否能让他们俩这样的幸福下去呢？
爱，
一但走了就不会再回来。
男孩和女孩答应会好好地珍惜对方。。
他爱她，而她更爱他。。
女孩不能没有男孩。。
Labels: love, personal, story
Saturday, April 14, 2007
4/14/2007 09:27:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]:Without you, I'm better off dead :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]:Without you, I'm better off dead :[x]Baby, I’m sorryI can’t stop thinking of youYou crossed my mindEvery now and thenSitting at a corner in the pubYet nothing seems to interestWithout you, I’m better off deadThroughout that noisy nightDim lights, smoky surroundI ain’t aliveI search for fun in itYet emptiness I feltLeft wondering in the midstWithout you, I’m better off deadLonely, sad I picked up my phoneAnd messaged youA simple ‘I Miss You’ Means a thousand wordsYou filled every inch of my thoughtsWithout you, I’m better off deadLooking at Tracy and BenThose memories of usCame flooding my mindThe hope that you were hereThough it’s all impossibleAt least for nowWithout you, I’m better off deadIn a pub filled with laughterWhy wouldn’t I feel as happy?Why wouldn’t I feel as relaxed?Why wouldn’t I plumb myself into the atmosphere?Why wouldn’t I...I think thought and still thinkingWithout you, I’m better off dead]My dearest love, I’m sorryI ain’t any independent girlI need you dearlyWithout youI’m just a living deadI’m sorry, I can’t promise anythingThat I could enjoy myselfWithout you…Labels: love
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
4/11/2007 08:30:00 PM Y
Post title : 想念
♥ You'll never know the real me.
想念
想念是什么？
是他的声音不绝于耳？
是他的影子频频浮现脑海里？
是他的香味挥之不去？
是他的笑容许久未消失？
是他的温柔？
是他的体贴？
是他的关怀与爱意？
到底是什么？
为什么我会这样想念他呢？是我神经出了问题吗？脑袋为什么一直浮现有他的画面？神经错乱了吧？
我曾来没有这么想念一个人。或说，我不懂得珍惜当初拥有的，所以不怕失去。 当真正体会到了失去的痛时，我才深深领悟到‘想念’是怎样的。但那些都成了过去的回忆，不是吗？我不再之谜与那时的失败、伤痛，只知道因为受过伤，体会过，所以学会更珍惜眼前的他。可是，这种一味的想要一辈子拥有他，是不是太过分了呢？想要他付出他多一点的时间陪我，想要它表现多一点的爱和关心。。
眼泪模糊了视线，模糊了我对他的爱。我爱他，但我对他的要求，太多了吧！我不知道从几何时，我变得不能没有他，分分秒秒挂念着他，想念着他。嗨~
宝贝，你知道我好想你吗？
Sob Sob =’(
-She’s not alone, she believes she has you with her.-
Labels: love
Sunday, March 25, 2007
3/25/2007 12:53:00 PM Y
Post title : A Sad Poem Of THAT GIRL's past R/S
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: A Sad Poem Of THAT GIRL's past R/S :[x]
陌生的你敷衍地说了“我爱你”
天真无知的我竟相信了
毫无考虑答应当你的女友
付出的爱一天多一点
预料之外的残酷世界
竟对我反映你的不诚实
哭红的双眼，空白的脑袋
不知你是否明白我的痛
厌倦了你的谎言
但不知是手的放不开
还是心的舍不得
心如刀割不知所措
是否会有那么一天
你听得到我在哭泣
看得到我失望的模样
体会得到我内心渴望的幸福
也许你都不会知道
我听着自己渐弱的心跳
看着我们的幸福渐远
慢慢了解一切都只是幻觉
你给的全是谎言
一天一点让我发现
到底是我爱得不够多
还是你不值得去爱
Everytime I close my eyes
I thought I got you…
Labels: love
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
3/14/2007 07:47:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Our Love :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Our Love :[x]
The sweetness of love shall never be described fully in words.
Therefore, what I can comment about US is simply “Doing Fine”
One may question how deep this affection of ours is;
Or maybe how much have we gone through;
Or perhaps will we overcome all obstacles?
Truly, no one is clear of the future ahead.
“You have got a bright future!” have you ever heard this told to you or to the people around you? Is it a bright future for LOVE or just career? Think carefully.
What makes an everlasting love? Like the definition of love – undefined.
Some says it is a habit, a habit of relying on the other part.
But I say it is a mixture of love, habit, reliance, tolerance and understanding towards the other party. Of course, there are more factors one can consider into.
Ever heard of “suan1(sour) tian(sweet) ku(bitter) la(spicy)?”
This is the taste of love. (at least to me)
Why would one say that love is not 'bout jealousy?
Why would one smell of happiness when in love?
Why would one protest that love brings hatred and tears?
Why would one feel each day a brand new day with unexpected surprises?
Every 'lil move, we’re observed. Like animals, human watch the actions and behavior of our partner like a dominating meal with the fear of losing it to the enemy. Nevertheless, we ensure that the other “animal” won’t snatch it away from you. This is jealousy.
When we’re with the loved one, we seem to be in cloud nine where troubles disappear and vanish into the thin air. A simple “I Love You” could make one smile happily throughout the whole day. This is Love’s Sweetness.
Quarrels, disagreements, misunderstandings and even break-ups cause misery. Tears cascading like it had never been before and the heart seemed to be pierced a million times by a sharp dagger. How bitter are you feeling?
Valentines’ Day, Anniversaries or any other days in the year, will you surprisingly receive lovely gifts from your partner or experience ‘pop ups’ at your school gate or office to fetch you home? I bet so. This spices up your life.
With the above should I sum up my love for him is somewhat similar to what I have mentioned ya! ^. ^ There are sweet moments but there are also sad scenes. Whatever it is, I know, I needa cherish what we hold in our hands now – LOVE
I Love My Man Dearly. <3Labels: love
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
2/13/2007 10:47:00 PM Y
Post title : FIRST and FOREVER!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: My Valentine :[x]
This day is coming. The day I have yearned for many years; to be with the one I love dearly
You showed me the reasons to love. You showed me the reason to mean my words; to cross my heart and love you faithfully; to endure pains and hardships; to persevere and continue to work towards a better future for you and me;
You never fail to instill even just that bit of laughter and warmth in those moments shared; You continued to express your love and affection in all means; Regardless of any obstacles that may come in our way, you are always the only one I love. At least for now..
I was afraid to lose you but you gave me all you could give to assure and ensure this relationship would succeed and last. You made me realize that all these fears could be as well abandoned and though the erratic world we live in – unpredictable, I, honestly, swear that I will be yours always. I may not be able to accompany you 24/7, neither can I come to you everytime immediately when you need me, however, I promise that I will try my very best to do so.
To you my love, I have never been so blessed til I met you. You gave me everything too and I appreciate every single lil things you do. You mean the world to me and I simply cant imagine me without you. Entrust me your entire heart and never stop loving me for I wanna be with you, JUST you til the end of time, can I?
For you, I am willing to bear all pains. Let us embrace this love of ours and prove the eternity of love!
.My Heart Is All Yours.
Labels: love
Monday, February 12, 2007
2/12/2007 06:58:00 PM Y
Post title : 2 rings 1 promise
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Is That Our Promise? :[x]
If so, that the rings signify our promised love, I'll rejoice.
Never in my life have I ever receive such an assurance.
Never in my life have I ever wanted so so so much to be with a HE
Never in my life have I enjoy my time happily surrounded by love
Never in my life have I ever thought that I need you more than anything else
At times,
You're pissed;
You're irritate;
You get impatient;
You kept unbearably quiet;
You seem to care none bout serious matters;
But I know deep down there's a part of you who love me so dearly..
You may be the type that:
Don't voice out when you're unhappy;
Don't want to quarrel over trivial matter;
Don't show out your care and concern;
Don't force others to change just to suit you;
Whichever and whatever, I love the way you are.
There's bound to be some unpleasant moments but I seriously hope we could stay loving =^.^=
Take my hand and never ever let go..
Labels: love
Monday, January 22, 2007
1/22/2007 07:24:00 PM Y
Post title : True Love?
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: True Love? :[x]
Indeed, how many ‘true love’ can you assume in life?
There’s no definite answer to who’s really your true love.
Our minds work differently and thus having different perspective of life, love, etc..
Though I’ve assumed some of my exes as true love, but they turned out to prove myself wrong, I still believe in love.
Nevertheless, fate/life is something we can’t predict. What lies in the future ahead of us?
Our visions, to be honest, are never clear for there are far too much unknowns in life.
I know some may disagree with my statements but just like I mentioned, different people different view of points, right?
Shall not say too much cos if one is too stubborn to accept my view, trying to understand my stand, my words, then I guess there’s no point for me to further explain myself too isn’t it?
Just to end off this post, I really love him loads and after that night of some misunderstandings with him, I realized how much I need him.. Up to you peep to say my feelings to him but I seriously hope he could be mine forever.
Life’s erratic but we’ll compromise! ^^v
Labels: love
Monday, January 01, 2007
1/01/2007 05:20:00 PM Y
Post title : Out of Love
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Out of Love :[x]
If one could feel how much I wanna be loved by that one Dream man in my life..
Is it that difficult to find one of a truthful heart?
Is it that impossible to have one now til old?
I feel more on that last day of that year, the most happening year where people come and go; Where hurts and sadness were almost everywhere, filling every single space it could find.
Was I too naïve to think that we could last everytime we get together?
Was I too pernickety ‘bout that new guy that was intro into my life?
Or was it that my heart just senses the unfaithful heart of theirs and don’t wanna be hurt no more??
All I want is a guy whom I can love faithfully and he whom I love loves n cares for me too. Perhaps, it’s just far too difficult as it seems now in this century. Quarrels and disagreements were everywhere. Not a single peaceful place where lovers could really find. How was I to know if I love again? How was I to know if I could bear that pain once more?
Everyone wanted to be loved and that’s a fact that one should never deceive, even to him/herself. We live for we have many people worth living for. They might seems unconcern but they’ll still be there at times when we’re in need. Indeed, even true friends can’t be there always so what more are we expecting? We don’t have a lifespan of hundreds of years to spend it with our families or friends forever. We eventually grow old and each day, we become weaker..
We died, leaving the future to the next generation. We need to live happily, shouldn’t we?
But, me, myself, got a problem here.. I simply felt so lost and out of love. I’m feeling lonely.. VERY lonely.. I have my girls I have my friends and they love me much too.. I got lotsa people who care for me.. but there’s just something amiss..
And that’s the man whom I could share my everything just with him and he could share his with me too. This world full of fakers and liars (I’m no exceptions too)
We hide and act and put on different masks each day, disguising different persona just to protect ourselves.. However these defensive covers have hurt others too much .. so much that we don’t notice it ourselves cos we’re locked in our own world.hais..
If only that ONE and ONLY man in my dream could quickly appear..
I’ll be waiting for you..
Labels: love
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
12/26/2006 08:48:00 AM Y
Post title : That Love
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: That Love :[x]
The way he kiss
The way he hug
The way he says
He love me much
Did anyone realize how much it means to the person you said these three words to?
Or did you just say it without really meaning it?
The vows and promises made
The memories shared between two persons
Yet..
Always the unavoidable ‘Goodbye’
Stabbed the heart and soul like a dagger pierced
Hearts were hurt and broken
Footsteps are now dreadful and heavy
Indeed, time would fade everything..
And this includes feelings..
Iron would turn rusty
Bread would turn mouldy
Coffee would turn cold
Biscuits would turn soft
Leaves would turn yellow
We would turn old
We aged as we grow.
And forever is impossible
How sure are you that you’ll meet in heaven/hell?
How sure are you that you’ll love him/her always?
Just simply ask yourself, “How sure am I?”
Have we forgotten the kind of love we’re waiting for? The one we once longed and desired for?
Have we forgotten the meaning to truly love before saying “I Love You” to that person?
Did we notice that in this century, what one would go for most are?
Looks? Feelings? Figure? Inner-beauty?
The kind of romance I wished for and still wishing..
The guy I think I should wait for and still waiting for..
But to think that time could change everything..
My heart would turn cold after that long wait.
No man on earth will wait forever now.
How many failed relationships will you have before your really marry the one?
“Actions speak louder than words”
But did you realize that the word “Act” comes from “Actions”?
Rarely will we think bout it, won’t we?
If what you want from me is just actions to prove it..
Then, tell me what you want and I shall do it for you
I need no true feeling for you to do it
I need no specific reason for myself to do so
I need no emotions to express it
For all you want are actions
Humans are born actors and actresses
If one intends to hide, that’s almost near a zero percent to expose him
Let alone asking him to speak the truths
But always remember that..
“Half truth is worse than a lie”
I’ll continue to learn from hurts and sadness
Continue to discover and notice how many loving and cruel people are there on Earth
I’ll continue to grow and love
Continue to experience success and failures
Most of all, I’ll continue to find the real meaning to be happy and how love goes about.
I wanna be that girl you’ll never find in this world.. The one and only that you shall regret not knowing! ^.^
Labels: love
Friday, December 22, 2006
12/22/2006 01:17:00 AM Y
Post title : The reason
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: The Reason For Me To Live :[x]
I dropped my tears once again. For a man they said not worthy of.
Finally, I boost my courage and said that unwanted goodbye to him.
For you, I realised how much the people around me cared.
They never wanted to see me sad
And I know..they're always there for me
All ready to cheer me up and chase all my blues away.
Truly, they are my reason to live
And, I shall live happily for them too..
Of all the gifts and toys,
I finally found the most precious one.
The one that has been there for a long time yet unnoticed.
It showed me that the world is full of caring people.
A place where I have many helpful friends with listening ears.
A short story to tell:
One day, Girl was using the laptop and chatting online. She was in her sis room at that time. Girl's Dad was sleeping soundly in the bedroom, Mum was doing household chores as usual, Bro was in his room using the com too, and sis was still outside .
Suddenly, Girl saw her bro's MSN nick appearing. She opened the window and saw what her bro typed. He told her that he'll always be there for her. And also, he'll be there when Girl need a listening ear. He saw her tearing the other day and thus messaged this to her.
Girl was touched and she felt a sudden gush of tears beating round the corners of her eyes.
Slowly, when things and those obstacles in life appear, Girl cried in joy, realising that she's not alone. She experienced love of kinship.. friendship.. sistership..
Girl admits she ain't a strong person and she feels sad when alone. She's afraid of getting hurt yet she never realised the hurt she brought to others too. However, she murmured to herself, remindng herself to be aware of the people around her. Understand and feel more for them. Girl wanted to be with her family, friends, and sisters forever. Girl is happy to know Gab, her god daddie, her sisters, her shushu, etc. They brought smiles and colors into her empty and dull world. They meant too much to her.. too much that she can't possibly live without them.
They showed their utmost care and concern for Girl and she appreciated it very much. She wanted them to know that they were the REASON for her to LIVE..
The End
Labels: love, story
Thursday, December 21, 2006
12/21/2006 01:50:00 PM Y
Post title : BUt then..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: But Then :[x]
The things that you do
Can make me feel loved
But then sometimes it feels
Like my heart has been shoved
The way that you joke
Can cause me to smile
But then they get harsh
Causing tears for a while
The way that you kiss
Can send shivers through me
But then you want more
Causing me to feel cheap
The things that you say
Can warm up my heart
But then more often than not
They can tear it apart
Labels: love
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
12/20/2006 11:27:00 PM Y
Post title : [x]: Simply For You :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Simply For You :[x]
You brought my heartbeat back from it's dreamland
You caught me when I fall
You told me how good you were
Yet for all that you've said, I'm holding doubts now.
I can't bear to say goodbye
I thought I was blessed to have you, and that I can put that faith in you.
However, You broke that trust and just from your eyes, how much you love?
Just tell me how much you love me? Honestly.. deep from your heart...
The intentions of getting another girl when you had me.
The preference to ring up other girls than me, your GIRLFRIEND? (Be it gan mei or what)
The unbearable silence from my phone, everyday waiting for you to text me
The unexpected fact that you actually lied to me
I wanted so much to talk to you face to face. Cos I wanna see you. But I know, I might not be able to take it too.
So much that I wanted to share with you, I wanted to be with you but I know..
I know.. I'm not that right girl in your life. Neither am I the ideal one I suppose.
I'm definitely not the one that could change you. Leave alone getting that real answer from deep down your heart.
Listen to your heart, if we're not meant to be, I'm willing to let go for this once again.
There's never a right time to say goodbye. I wanted to end 'beautifully' on our first monthsary.
But I know we needa go on separate ways. Also, I'm afraid I'll hold back that farewell when I see you or when time pass.
I'm not that strong girl when comes to relationship. I do like you and to make a choice between stay and leave is no easy decision too.
Yet I guess I needa choose my way out. So, I decided to leave your world. Thanks for creating memories for me even if it's only a short period of 3 wks.
You're the third guy I gave my tears to. Do remember me and bear in mind that there's this one girl that once loved you faithfully but was hurt by your lies.
You may not mean to, but things can't be undone.
She wanna tell you:
"I laid my eyes on you thinking you're the one for me. Each day my feeling for you grows. Yet your lies thrown me so hard and fast onto the ground. Still, I clinged on to the relationship, hoping that thing will turn out to be better. But I know, I can't expect much from you for I only occupy a small part in your heart. I wanted to love you faithfully for all of my life. However, I don't think you need me at all. Open your heart to me will you?
Whatever it is, no matter what will come, I'll still be there and lend you a shoulder when you need a companion. This I promise you.."
Ending it now might be of a better choice I think. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy every moments! I'll miss you my dear. Last but not least.. GoodBye.. ='(
Labels: love
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
12/19/2006 11:22:00 PM Y
Post title : gush of messed feel
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: gush of messed feel :[x]
Never say you love me when you don't mean it
Never say you care for me when you don't give a damn
Never say you miss me when you're thinking of another girl
Never say you want me when you wanted a pretty girl with nice bod
Never promise to be there for me always when you can't
Never promise to meet me when you don't want to
Never promise to take my hands when you're going to let go
Never promise to be mine forever when your feelings change easily
Never look into my eyes when you don't mean what you say
Never look into my eyes when all you say is lies
I know you're lying. I know you'd rather be with someone else than me
Yet I shut my eyes, blinding them pretending I don't mind or don't know at all.
Can you see that disappointment in my eyes?
Can you see those tears for you?
Can you feel that sadness in me?
Did you see that forceful smile of mine?
Have you ever notice me?
If you can't see only me in your eyes, I'm not that girl you wanted to be with.
To think that I trusted you,
waited for you the way I've never done before,
yet you prove my love and feelings wastefully given to someone not worthy of.
However, that unknown feeling in me just kept me going with you.
It's expecting for something more real yet afraid of those hurt and pain that might accompany along.
How real are you?
I lost my sight, visions blurred..
Searching for one right man of mine but will I really find one?
If Love is that difficult
Than ban anymore guys from entering and messing my life
Seal all my feelings and emotions
Tired.. I'm really sick and tired of everything.
To act each and every day with a smile. Numbing myself with all my craziness.
I'm fine.. set?
Labels: love
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
12/13/2006 11:04:00 AM Y
Post title : [x]: Back to LOVE :[x]
♥ You'll never know the real me.
[x]: Back to LOVE :[x]
We laid our eyes for that moment they met
We throw in our feelings the moment we feel
Never knowing what may come
We willingly fall in love
The fear that wanders
In me it never disappears
Affecting the trust and security
Confusing the level of love's maturity
The serendipity of our meeting
The joy we had ever after
It's coming back again
The way I'm LOVED
I'm back to being a girl of someone else. Never knowing how long we may last, never considering too much bout the future that lies ahead. I boldly chose to be with him.. just with him.
Til the day he give up, I believe I'll continue to throw in my feelings and love bit by bit and more each day. The affection between would grow but even a flower that blooms would wither, thus I'm not expecting much from this new relationship.
Or should I say I dared not? Or am I just deceiving myself that I don't give a damn at all?
Fear arises the moment the agreement of a specific status was made. Yet bits of happiness I feel in me. It was as if I have expected him to come to my life, taking care of the me that have been all the while with my girls in my world.
I had fun with my venerated girls I admit. I enjoyed and love every single moment spent and shared with them.
However sistership can never be compared to that love I longed from a guy I could entrust myself to.
I've got no 100 percent confidence but I'll take a baby step at a time to get closer to him. Understanding the way he is and be a good girlfriend. Hopefully the best he can ever find.
But even so, will he really realise? I don't know.
If there's a day we have to part, I'll cry.
I know I'll feel that heartache once again.
Doubt to have that strength to heal myself by then but I'll let go.
Of course, never ever the slightest wish for that day to come.
He's the third I truly feel for and I pray for him to be the last.
I never throw in anymore true feelings after the second one. Now that I've met him and be with him.. I know everything is for real.
The misses, the hugs and kisses, the happiness..
My dearest man, I'll love but never forever for there's one day we'll part.. the day we enter our death..
Labels: love
